Life Is Such A Misery :(

2011-01-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

why suddenly all this flashback came back?

omg it just totally spoilt my mood

and you you you!

im confused abt you

u make mi feel up and down

not soo up and yet very down

i dun even know how u feel abt mi and i duno how i feel abt you too

u are making mi confuse like totally

i dun wanna care yet i care alot

and i dun show it

becos i dun wan to make mistake

2010-11-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

this time round is really over

i wil start my life all over again

not that i dun wanna be ur friend

it's not easy immediately being friend with ur ex lover

do u rly think i love you no more

perhaps

all this thing takes time

at least im relieve

all this while

i been wanting to tell u let's stop talking for the time being

and yet i cant tell u the reason

oh well

now i can only make u think that im mad,childish or watever

but that's becos i love you

and i had to make myself rly get over you

before i could rly be ur friend again

this time round i fail myself

if i ever see u down the street one day

i will take it as i do not know u at all

2010-11-19T02:35:00.002+08:00

i was trying my best to forget u

just when i wasnt thinking,

trying so hard not to know anything abt you

not gg to ur profile and see hw are you

you have to talk to mi at this timing

asking mi hw am i gonna celebrate my christmas.

u gave mi a hope,and smashed it right away.

im rly trying.

we have nth to do with each other anymore

i do not wan u as my friend.

perhaps for now i do not wan

in future i might be able to accept

i just have to keep telling myself that u n mi are not suitable

u are not the type for mi

we got nothing to talk

yet i have to keep thinking abt u when i am all alone

while u might be just enjoying

maybe for now u might not

but just another month

u will be.

seriously i dun wanna lie to myself

i miss you alot.

but i have to keep it to myself

friend ask so hard to get over u meh

i will be like no la.i alr forgotten her la

siao meh?saying all these thing to comfort myself

i wish...till the time i get over you

i do nt wanna know anything abt u

or rather i dun wan to talk abt u

i just needed some time.

Wang Lee Hom - Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi 你不知道的事

2010-11-18T01:39:00.000+08:00

2010-11-18T01:23:00.002+08:00

why am i still thinking of you?

u are nothing but just a passerby in my life

is it that hard to get u out?

was i wrong to start the whole thing n end the whole thing myself?

i could not find anymore reason to talk to you already

it's time.... to let go of all these.

it's been a long long time since i last felt like this

it is not as hurting as my past r/s.things ended properly.

we know each other not long,we din last that long either

most importantly,we did not have alot of memories to let mi hold on to this

but why am i feeling this way?

i wanna say i miss you alot

but it doesnt seems so

i just..... see u online

end of the day,had i let go not i do not know

im super contradict by myself

if only someone could tell mi wth im thinking,

i tried to move on,find someone new to forget u

this time round,it's not working out.

i want to tell u that i love you

and i wanna get back with u

yet my heart is not feeling this way

i seriously duno what am i feeling and what am i thinking

just hope that i could get rid of this feeling soon

argh just fuck it

i wanna put an end to everything(:

2010-11-17T00:08:00.002+08:00

if u ever know how much i miss you

it's alr been 2weeks plus

i should had stop all these miss for you

i always tried to find topics to talk to u

but i realise it will rly end after this christmas

just becos i still have the clothes that i had brought for u

i never knew u meant this much to mi

until i lose u,but too late

ur changed of heart, moved on faster than i thought

i tried to be as happy as i can everyday

showing everyone i was fine

but when im home

the moment i went online

i will see if u are online not.go look at ur profile

seriously im thinking wtf am i doing all these for?

when i know u n mi will never get back anymore

mandy told mi woo u all over again when u are back in singapore

i dun wan.becos i was the one who ended all this.

argh just fuck it

my life sucks TO THE MAX!

2010-03-30T02:25:00.002+08:00

i just hate the feelings im having now
fuck it can!
i sooo wanna distance myself away from you
yet it seems like w/o u im lost.
why the fuck am i feeling this way?
it's damn contricting.
hopefully tmr i can mark what i said.
becos i dun wanna be like this anymore

2010-02-04T03:03:00.002+08:00

it's like so freedom now.
life w/o liking anyone is like so :)
im washing my hands off u!
dun run crying to mi when she dun wan u
because i dun give a damn ok
wat did u do to us when we rush over to u in the middle of the night?
fuck you!
im damn irritated
the only thing that can save u is yourself
well im nt gonna say much
and another person
i rly hope u will think ok
dun be with that fucker anymore
and dun have the nid to talk to that bitch
because it's nt worth ur breath
trust mi love will come by u one day
maybe its nt now
love be happy ok
that's all i asked for
because i do not see any happiness in u anymore
trust mi w/o him u will be happier
just like mi:)
im so excited abt tmr
and i shall pray hard to go through everything sucessfully:)

2010-01-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

seems like everyone is having relationship problem:(
phew.
and i cant do anything for them
because i myself facing one too
and i duno how to handle it
awhile im sad awhile im nt
guess it's just a crush toward from mi to you
but i still miss the happy moment
and it's not affecting mi in oneway or another?
idk wtf im talking abt
i just know that knowing u wasnt a mistake
falling for u was a mistake
if we haven't talk n i will still be enjoying my single livehood happily
it's nt ur fault,because in the first place we are just friends!
and pls dun deny that u still have feeling for her
because she's ur addict n everything u nid
not because of habit
and now u are not aware is because she's still around u
when she no longer around u and walk away with others
u will know what im talking abt
small girl this is relationship
i've been through
so to mi u are nothing
because i've been through the worst
and i never say this to you because i do not want to spoilt this friendship
and i believer from today onward we will be like before
just those hi n bye friend
because u are nothing to mi
and im nothing to you
what happen that night is just a fling,one night stand
and nothing important
i dunno u n u duno mi
we are in different world
u stay in ur world while i shall stay in mine too
no one affect each other
why am i feling this way now is because u were there for mi
even though it's just a few days
it's more than enough
otherwise i think i will have to take longer time to get over this

and thank you to my idiotic colleague
making fun of mi can
they gave mi a watch so damn touch!omg
love them

2010-01-24T17:29:00.002+08:00

things changed
u din even wish mi which is :(
but it's okay:)
cause i think im better off without you
clique had done so much for mi
which rly like so damn touch
even though they cant keep their mouth shut
still appreciate what they had done for mi
seriously i love them ttm
because without them there wont be mi
heh.so mushy
well 19th birthday get 19th hugs
something trilling
and i had to put one of the girls photo in fb for a week!
i cant wait for liyan tag the photo
hahahaha
im damn sleepy gonna sleep now.
bye love and once again thanks love:)muack

2010-01-24T04:00:00.002+08:00

omg!enjoy myself like fuck can,
with colleague at rebel,was like drunk?
clique at town was like omg la.
got 19 hugs,got quite a few hot girls.
and miss pek was so nice to mi can
kiss mi nvm she book a hotel for my birthday!!!!!
and got 19 balloon damn nice n touch can
i love my clique to the max!!!!
thanks clique for creating such a memorable birthday for mi
cause i had never celebrated my birthday before.
thanks for everything
love:)

and seriously i miss u
yet another way im giving up on u
because it's all seem one sided
and i believe u are not over her
because it's nt easy for u
i deleted your number
because i dun wan to have the tendency to msg u
oh well i guess it's rly over
i should get over it as well.

2010-01-21T22:03:00.003+08:00

why?why is it when i started to give up
n u gave mi a light of hope
i dun rly know what to reply u
and hw do u wan mi to explain?
saying that because i wan to give up on u
and wish to stay away from u at a moment
wait till i have no more feeling for u
and i will be meeting u again/
if i say all this to u i bet u might think it's lame or what
because i feel that im nothing to you
if i mean something y did u take so long to reply my text
and when i met u the other day
why didnt u talk to mi or care abt mi
when im so sick n kept smoking?
doesnt this just prove something?
i dun mean a thing
what happen that night i wont forget
and all i know u were just playing with mi
i duno hw to reply u n dunno how to face u
all i know is to get u out of my mind now,
like u said we dunno each other well enough
why didnt u show mi that u wan know mi more
doesnt it just show that u are not interested in mi?
in the first place before that incident happen
things were different den
idk idk u are rly very contricditing.

2010-01-21T01:26:00.002+08:00

i tot u will reply mi for that msg
so that at least i mean something to u
but i was sooo fucking wrong
i was nothing to you
well everything started fast n ended fast too
why i texted u that is because i wan to forget u
my heart is aching.
idk why,we have not started or what yet it's aching,
fuck it!!!!!!!!

2010-01-17T20:45:00.002+08:00

alot of thing i wan to ask you
i question myself
den again if i do nt ask
seems like nothing to talk abt
if i ask will our relation change?
and i wonder do u have the same feeling as what im having now?
although we may nt be able to meet for almost a week
but it's ok because we both do not like to be control.

2010-01-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

think im gonna get sick soon
this 2 days din have a proper rest
tot that today will have a proper rest
in the end im going out with jm they all

you know i just miss you so much
miss the way u kiss mi and everything
it's just one night and so many thing can happen
when u kiss mi that moment
i wanted to tell u how much i love you
but when i look at u i was lost for words
you know u mean the world to mi
perhaps i should say im not good enough for u
but whatever had happen between us i shall keep it
im starting to paranoid
im nt letting you know how much u actually mean to mi
all i wan to say is i love you A.

2009-12-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

i needed time to think
yes i still love you
but again something is stoppin mi to get back
i dunno how to explain to u
anw i dun wanna hurt u
that is why im blogging it
and i know u wont be reading
yes it's a small thing like u said
but can u promise not to be like before if we are back together again?
i dun think so.
reason i do not wan to give u my answer is because i wan to rly think
think abt what i wan and let u reflect on what happen too
im afraid i might give u bad news
u ask mi is it because i got thing to do den ask u give mi time
i dunno now i just dun feel like getting back together
because we had our breakup in the past
just after 2 day or so we are back
seriously this time i wan to think hard
dun wan to take the wrong path for the both of us anymore
im sorry if i had hurt u.

2009-12-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

im sorry
u are the last person that i wan to hurt
i didnt mean to be harsh to u
just that i did not wan to give u anymore hope
that we will be together again
not because of dun love den i leave u
it's because im tired of trying to pls u alr
i gave in too much.and sorry for giving in too much
because of that it was a blow to u that we are separting
im sad to leave u
i still love you
reason why i leave u is becus u do not trust mi anymore
it's hard to gain trust and i know i let you down
im rly sorry
i often wonder hw are u getting on
and everything but i just dun wan to contact u
becus i dun wan giveu hope
i dun wan to continue this relationship because i know 1 day it wil end
why not just end it now?
i rather we get hurt now den later
yes i agree i never tot of the future
maybe im just not the right one for u
i have let u down
promises i made to u are broken
that's why u dun trust mi de
it's al because of my fault
it's not ur fault for the cause of break up.
all i could say is take care of yourself as much as possible pls

2009-12-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

what a christmas this year.
a hit on the head that cause bleeding
follow by a breakup
i rly need to thank santa claus uh?
if u had given mi the trust i guess things wont end this way too
anyway time spend with u were memorable
i will never forget
thank you for being such a good gf
thank you for being so tolerant to my temper
this 1 year 4 month plus is rly a long road
i never regret this.and pls dun say it that im waiting for this day very long le
because i never look forward to a day to parted with u
although we had alr broke up
but i rly wish u wont do anything silly
thank you for giving mi all ur love
and loving mi.
i guess we still can be friends afterall
i hope u will find someone who is so much better than mi
and will love u more than anyone in this world
and im sure u will bemuch happier by then
im sorry abt all the promises i gave u
i din not fulfil it.for the last time as well i love you.

2009-10-25T17:22:00.002+08:00

hey guys im back
well my blog is dead like what!!!!!
sometimes i rly wish i could turn back the time.
it used t be so carefree and without any stress etc
i rly miss those times
seriously it's no longer like the past anymore
working sucks to the max
but what can i do?
it's just the money that im working for
only can blame myself for not wanting to study in the first place
nobody faut's except for mine
flashback passes now n den
i rly regret for everything that i had done in the past
but nothing could make it right anymore
i rly do not wan to think abt it
always there will be small little thing that remind mi
nobody perfect anyway
i guess im the worst of the worst
well happy with my life now and is it the fullstop?
with a loving n adorable gf like mine
how long will we last?
i dunno

is it my fault for everything?
am i not giving u enough?
time is not what i can give u
eventhough i really wish
but i really hope that u will be a good father like what u were
i always break down n ask myself why this thing happen
she left mi early
i wish u could treasure ur life more
and spend it with mi
money is the major issue
but i also do not wish u will have to work in a place where it's dangerous
u have been jobless for so long
im afraid that u cant adapt
or?im just worries for u anyway
no matter what happen u are still my dad
even though im harsh at words
but it's all for ur own good
i trust u times n again but u disappoint mi times again
pls treasure urself more than mi alright
i love you:)

my dearst
u are working very hard now
im at home:)heh
missing u even though we are separated for hours.
i dunno hw long we can last but i know the journey is still long
thank you for loving mi,giving mi support when i needed
even though there was time when i say i did not love u as much
but now my answer now is i love u like hw u love mi
we had alot of ups n down.but every single thing are meant to be remember
no matter wat we have to work hard together for our dream!
i love you laopo da ren:)muack

2009-04-29T23:44:00.002+08:00

really darn damn long never blog liao
everyday work n so tired.
alot of things had happen
and because of the things happen and i realise i love baby more than anything
though she always make mi angry or what
but overall u know she's still so nicee to mi n dotes on mi
i know i always bully her.but den i also wish i can treat her nice nice
i always say wan buy her this and buy her that
in the end i also never buy
or else is buy liao den complain no money
i realise how bad im to her.like seriously
but if really everything stable le i wan buy things for her la.
afterall when i was peniless she was the one who gave mi the money.
i really own her alot.
though i also have the thing i wan buy
but i know she will buy for mi de(:
hahah im soooo thick skin.
but i know she will(:
okay wait till i got more mood den i will blog(:
dear dear i love you(: muack muack:*

2009-02-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

is this the way it should be?
well i dunno
im kinda depress right now.
be it is finding for job or my relationship or the things at home
i really dunno what to do.
im trying to please you baby.im really tring bt i guess u will say u cant see it.
but baby it's a night without u n we are quarreling.
well i know i deserve it.
anyway baby i just nid u to know that i love u n hope we will get over with this
im going to find job tmr without u
n if i find i will just start the job
be it where the place
and after im stable with the job i will fix our problem abt mi staying at my own hse or yours
trust mi give mi some time to think abt it.
i know we quarrel alot of time abt this alr.
but i guess this time round i will be able to settle it ba?
maybe u will ask mi to save this trouble but i really wan to settle this
we cant be always quarrel abt this right
it's been like 2mth plus.because of the same old problem.
i still wan to tell u baby i love you(:

2009-02-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

suddenly i think time past damn bloodly fast
kinda miss the past but love the present now
looking forward to the future with you(:
without u i wont be wat im today
n i know u are the one
trust mi when i say this though u are unreasonable at times
but still i love you.u sacrifies for mi while i din.and i know u mind
after this rough patch i go through
when i stable my house matter
i swear i will treat u better
i will treat u better than how i treat my ex
i swear to u n i promise u this okay.
just need some time to get over this.
and baby i love you(:

2009-01-16T02:09:00.002+08:00

without you by my side it's really hard to sleep
without your smell,your sound everything without you makes mi hard to sleep
i simply miss you so much
though we always quarrel for small little things but i still love you lots
i just simply cant live on without you because u seems to be the only person that i nid
but i understand u actually have been a very paitient wifey as well
u had been very nice to mi.while others could actually only see the bad side of you
it's hard to explain sometimes.
maybe somethings are just left to be unsaid i guess.
but i just have to tell you that u ligten my life up
even though we always quarrel but it never make mi feel that being with u very xinku before
not like my past relationship which i think is miserable
though ur unreasonable makes mi unable to breath at times
just a smile from you everything is gone.
so now you know how powerful u are to mi alr?
i love you wifey(:

2008-12-24T15:03:00.002+08:00

i really dunno what i do wrong?
was it because i did call u as much as before that u get so angry with mi?
i tried so hard to make u happy but i still failed
maybe im just a failure:,(

2008-11-28T09:51:00.002+08:00

i dunno why im just feeling this way
i din want to feel this way either but i just cant help it
so i just have to hide it inside real neat.
i was really very sad
so sad till the moment i think of ur facial expression when u talk to her
i just break down n cry.u blame mi for msging her
but i never blame u for talking to her
just very upset.i never did blame u or neither was i angry with u
i just cant help but feeling this way

2008-11-11T11:47:00.003+08:00

im like at work now okay
baby somemore can at home sleep
but she sick luh
dunno she okay alr nt
so worry abt her k
i oso having headache
damn tired dunno what time am i going to sleep today
going lunch soon dunno wan to eat anot

fri went to daddy hse den saw mummy kat n valerie luh
omg so long din see them liao
den val help mi n daddy pierce eyebrown:)
finally! i waited so long alr now damn happy okay
and i got no more red hair:(i got a purple hair liao
cant blog much gtg.will update soon

2008-10-31T23:51:00.003+08:00

seriously i dunno wth im doing okay
whatever i do does not make u happy
why?u tell mi why?
FUCK!
cant i even be online?
it's the least i can do for my friend alr luh
i din meet them also because of u
and over this small thing u wan to be angry with mi?
i seriously dunno what makes u happy anymre ok
if u are not happy tell mi in the face what u not happy abt
i explain to u but u dun wan take it what can i do sia?cb
all this thing i ask it for myself one is it
fuck everything okay!

2008-10-30T14:32:00.002+08:00

well im at work now
hahaha damn sian
i miss laopo.........
anyway alot of thing had happen
i really wish everything will put to a stop
i mean those bad thing.laopo i know u will anyhow think de k:P
hahahah
not much thing to update luh
meeting up soon with zhenyi i guess after her o's
i miss everybody
like seriously hope to meet up soon:)
my world revolve around u
and laopo u know it's u( :
trust mi when i say i love you because i mean it<3

2008-10-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

been sick lately but laopo took great care of mi:)
anyway i miss daddy.laopo is zi lian-ing infront of mi luh
but i still love her to the max
she's just so adorable luh
i really wish i can dotes on her like how i imagine
but the fact always turn out the other way round:(
i really feel bad treating her the way i din wanted
but i always lose my temper
i din want it this way either
im sorry laopo.

anyway to lynn i promise i will meet up with u soon luh
it's not because i got gf den i dun care u all luh
it's not what u guys think luh
anyway hope to meet up soon with all of u guys
since n level is over alr
this time round i promise u guys i will be there:)
pls dun be angry anymore

laopo this is for you
no matter what i do is for u
even if i get angry with u is because i care for u
otherwise i can even be bother right
anyway laopo i love you tons!
u are just my everything
without u i cant imagine what my life would be
muacks

2008-09-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

i've not been wanting to go online because i din wan u to be unhappy
i did my very best not to get u to be unhappy
yes i promise i will not throw temper at u anymore
yet i just did it anyway
im sorry i dunno how to put it to words to u
i only know that i could write it here
i was not being angry with u at all
i was feeling fed up with the internet connection
it was so slow and my lappy is lagging like shit
im sorry laopo i din mean it
i know u will say i alr break my promise and u are disappointed with mi
im sorry dear
seriously sorry i dunno what to do right now
perhaps i was wrong again
however i wish that u wont leave mi
im sorry for every single thing i did to you
im sure u are the right one for mi
im sure we could last
trust mi dear i love you de

2008-09-15T21:29:00.003+08:00

i am so fortunate!baby drive mi around.hahaha

though it's escape gold kart.but it will b real car 1day:)

iloveyou baby(:

unable to figure out?well it's baby n my hand

we wear the light sticks.

this is the hand which i wish to hold on forever!

2008-09-09T16:26:00.002+08:00

just a close of eye
already passed one month plus
omg anyway working at that hotel was fun luh
esp sat but den sun those malay guys not around
kinda bored luh
but sun we had the dessert
fucking nice okay.dunno what happen to stupid huiwen
she stupidly spill out the whole mouthful of dessert on the aunty.
woah.the aunty face change very fast luh.
the uniform damn nice okay.omg.huiwen hurry upload the one n only pic.
i noe next week u guys still can take pic luh.idiot.hahaha
last week i think?met up with chenwei,aitin,jenny.together with gal gal
we went for steamboat!woah the first time i eat steamboat i din felt that i was super full
because i realise i eat super slow okay
enjoying ma,hhahahaha.after eating,went to shop with cw and jj
after shopping we went separate ways,gal n mi went to joelle hse there de pasar malam
gal gal buy quite alot of clothes.when we reach home.
were quite tired.but chenwei called ask whether wan go over to backstage not
so went over there to drink awhile.den everyone was tispy except for girl girl.
den headed over to eat.eat finish alr go home.
but it was raining damn heavily luh.
the moment i reach home i wanted to sleep
but i got to bathe luh.ah bor damn dirty.hahhahaha
was feeling damn xinku.force myself to vomit luh.
after that sleep all the way.

yesterday had a whole day out with girl girl
so it was quite romantic when we were eating
until some things have to happen
it RAIN luh
wth lor.damn spoilt mood one leh.omg
in the end we went to underground there sit and eat
listen to music everything
after that went home.it's was one of the best date yesterday
baby i love you
thanks for everything that u done for mi alright?
muacks

2008-08-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

trust me girl when i say i love you
and i know the reason why u get so affected eh
i dun blame u but den it makes mi feel sad
it's like i did a wrong thing again
hais
well i really dunno what to do alr
eh whatever it is i just know that my heart belongs to you
and it doesnt have place for others alr
ilu baby

daddy ah
better meet up soon alright
miss you luh:(

2008-08-21T23:53:00.002+08:00

omg
my blog is soooo dead!!!!
seriously i love baby soooooooooo much okay
met up with daddy today
for dinner den walk around
she came my hse watch L word and den she went home
dear dear going home tmr after work
i got to go the part time work:(
gonna miss her luh
nvm i shall go her hse stay on sat or something:)
another week to go!!!!!!!
cant wait to start work and something else:)
dear dear i love you and it's true
trust mi alright

2008-08-16T00:50:00.002+08:00

well actually alot of thing happen within the period of time i din blog
well i guess if i write down everything here my finger will be in pieces at the end of post
i am meeting daddy tmr for shisha
most probably is can luh
hope my life dont go on like that
i really nid a job like realy soon luh
omfg.i cant take it alr luh
there is job luh
just that im lazy
i already worked so hard for past 3 years
no wonder im slacking like some shit now
gosh i really got to go and find a job real soon
hmmm
and baby i miss you:(

2008-08-15T03:32:00.002+08:00

this is actually something to represent between us
heh.baby i really love you alot
anyway u are lying at my bed now
hahahahahaha
im going to pei you soon:)

sorry hasnt been updating
and to that leejunjie
stop making so much noise k
hahahahah
meet up soon ok
den we go shop with miss c and bitch like before
heh.im busy right now:)

2008-08-06T02:08:00.003+08:00

i dunno what did i do
or maybe u are not upset over mi or what
but seeing u like that makes mi helpless
wanting to make u happy
but at loss of what to do
well i guess i failed my part as a gf
i really dun hope to see u this way
sigh.im too stupid to do anything right now
seems like i cant create ur smile
now im thinking whether i am the one for u
dun u think it's very saddening to see ur gf unable to make u smile
when u are so upset over there
perhaps im not the one for you
even though i love you alot
but if u wan to leave i wont stop u
because it's ur choice after all
i cant stop u or anything
perhaps escaping is not a bad thing after all
but just hope that u will be fine soon
darling i really loves you
pls dun be so upset anymore
im sorry if i do anything to upset u

2008-08-05T01:07:00.002+08:00

today went to ball at huanted court
tang yuan and candy came
we play untill damn funny
esp tang yuan luh
play until halfway
i saw this girl damn famillar
den it's baby luh!
omg she give mi a surprise luh
damn shocked and happy luh
hahahaha
so sweet of baby k

seriously i love you alot okay
i dun wan to lose you
you mean alot to me
i dunno what i can do to assure u that i love you
and never wan to lose you
i know that im not good at sweet talking and stuff
seriously im DUMB luh
but baby i just wan to tell u that i really love you alot
dun leave me k
if one day u happen to leave mi
pls do so quietly
dun let mi noe or else i will be very sad

2008-08-04T02:11:00.002+08:00

seriously i dunno wtf is wrong with you luh
i mean like we din do anything to like even offence u
or maybe i did.but as u know love this kind of thing is unexpected
perhaps u can tell the whole world not because of my gf or whatsoever
seriously ur reason for quitting the team is damn lame
i mean not lame or what.but i just think that it's just excuses
to think we actually like really treat u as our friend
one of us part of everything
and now because of some conflicts,u turn ur back on us
so this is fucking fair to us luh?
now i really see who my true friend is now.u may think that im not ur true friend
because i like the girl u actually like oso.i got nothing to say alr.
since u already dun bother abt us.i dun see the point to actually to bother abt u anymore
why should we waste our time n effort.
we actually tried to pei u to mit the girl u like,and it's like not even my fault luh
i alr felt so fucking guilty over it,ask u to compete with mi
not only u din wan,den u say ran mi.den after that turn ur back on mi
just vent it on mi luh.why must do this to the team
do you even think it's fair to guan hong
seriously i think you should think abt it luh,because i dun see the reason to talk to u anymore
turn your back and escaping from reality is what u best at doing.
quit from the team when u feel like it.din even inform
u dun even give us the basic respect.
im very disappointed in you.nt only mi.jovy and guanhong too.
hope u coul go n self reflect.think abt what we went through together
i dun wish to say much,because whatever i write here,u wont know either
FUCK IT!

i missing her right now
seems like i needed her by my side24/7
omg i never know love could do this to a person
anyway i love her alot
and i dun wan to qurrel with her or lose her
because i will be very sad eh
girlgirl i loveyou<3

2008-08-01T18:55:00.002+08:00

was it actually my fault again?
ya i admit that im a fucking bastard to actually fall for the girl my friend like
but seriously i couldnt control it myself
u told mi how understanding u were
yet on the other hand u were doing another thing
seriously this is making mi so fucked up
i dun wan to hurt u because i know how much u love her
but again i told u fair competition,but u didnt wan to
u wan to back out of this whole damn thing n hurt yourself
making mi feel like a fucking bastard n feeling so guilty
guilty to actually fall for her and making u to hurt urself
come on what is this?if u have any unhappiness say it out
yes i know that u will be sad but den again
sad u also dun have to do this kind of thing to hurt urself
handle thing maturely.i know im still childish
but at the very least if i were to be in ur shoe
i wont do such a stupid thing like u
u hurt urself.wat do u get back in the end?
nothing right
pls dun do this to yourself already
it's not making any one of us feeling good
pls take good care of yourself
im sorry still

daddy i trust u luh
u wan mi say this right
i know u how long liao
if becos of one girl make our friendship fall
we must be crazy man
it's like we been through so much already luh
all happiness and sadness dun be silly daddy:)
i love you daddy

like you said u wan mi to be your one and last girlfriend
and i feel the same too
but i wan to know u more and i wan u to know mi more too
i dun wan the future of us to be quarreling
and by that time we think we dun suit each other
i dun wan to quarrel with u
neither do i wan to lose you
because i realise i had fall for you so much already
it's been so long i had this feeling
and i never had this special feeling for others already
it's only for you and no one else
trust mi i only love you:)

look to the end of the post:)

2008-07-28T22:44:00.003+08:00

im sorry.but it's candid so i must post.ps gh.hahahah

jovy look cute here right,hahaha.but look at her leg.open so BIG!

okay i swear yesterday was the funnest day i ever had
went over to downtown for some reason
was fucking hungry
went to eat and den slack
and start with our plan
in the end we found thing beyond our expectation
hahahah
so off we go!with the thing we found
we used abt 3 hour plus to figure out how to get out of pasir ris to bedok
and the last alternative we took the express way
it was damn scary.anytime we can get catch by police
so i ride damnit fast to like get through the express way
and den mel fell.while riding up the slope
it seem like quite serious
ouch ouch painful okay
ah jac feel damn bad cause she was the one who ride her luh
den we rested n we set off again to bedok
finally reach enous.cause the journey too far n my butt is damn pain
so i just headed home straight
while the rest head over to jovy hse
den i sleep all the way until jac mum called
n wake mi up from my dreamland
n rot at home the whole day
going to look for job n play ball tmr
going to rest now

this video is for jovy ong!hahahaha
ur childhood video eh:)

2008-07-26T23:58:00.004+08:00

this leh.is the ng bear bear do wan lo
dun think i stupid dunno who do wan hor,
hahaha.

the one in black is NGHUIYING.i name her
bear bear.dont u think she look like one?
big big n soft soft de.hahahaha
den the one who is eating chicken wing is
MEIYI:)the way she eat quite funny hor

today went to fetch daddy den pass gh the shoe
den shun bian ball awhile.

after that went off

dunno why suddenly feeling emo

this feeling felt kinda weird

why am i feeling this way for no reason

well i cant find a reason

but daddy tell mi this

im sick n tired of everything now

perhaps she's right

but there's nothing for mi to care or what.

so right now what's wrong with mi

OMFG.i really had no idea of everything

2008-07-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

nothing really happen today
just that i got a fucking swollen eye
and im going for interview tmr
die luh
no face see ppl alr
alr so ugly still plus one swollen eye
i jump off building man
hahahahaha
damn bored
hahahaha.im gonna pei fanny tonight
because she wasnt able to sleep
not going to blog much
my eye are damn pain

joelle ng jia wen
whatever it is u noe that im here
think abt what i say to u
maybe releasing some of the knot that u have in your heart
it might be so much better thAN whatever u are feeling right now
and u will feel so much relax than before
trust mi
slowly let go.dun even bother to think abt all those unnecessary thing
u wont be so stress up
daddy i love you

2008-07-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

today supposed to fetch daddy
in the end i from taopayoh take train to yishun
cause the train terminates there
dunno why.den from yishun take to jurong
supposed from yishun take to batok but den daddy wait at jurong for mi
reach jurong like finally but i got out the wrong side den got to walk down the stairs
walk over to the other side
den went over to vivo.walk around eat
den went for shisha.in the end kanna check
wasnt able to shisha luh.damn sian
walk to bugis walk around
sian.today keep on moodswing
dunno what's wrong
for small little angry
im going crazy
been very hot tempered lately
i guess i got to cool myself down more often

i miss the feeling of missing you
i miss the feeling of thinking of you
but now all these feelings are gone
and will never be back again

2008-07-20T22:52:00.004+08:00

okay i shall like blog abt yesterday okay
yesterday after ball
guanhong suggested go fort canning explore
den huiying was like err just now raining the floor will wet
den i say scare say scare dun nid use rain as a excuse luh
hahahaha
she din wan to go so badly luh
hahahha.that was the first time i see her like that
gosh it's damn funny okay
hahahahha.den first time we go up
mi n jovy infront.meiyi,zave behind.last guanhong n huiying
mi n jovy walk super fast luh.den they u turn they never tell us
in fact they did but we din hear
it was quite scary eh.we were not very far from them yet we cant hear a thing
den we went to clark quay to see clinic
it was damn cool i will go over next year,
guanhong wan go so this time round was mi jovy guanhong
we went up the slope at fort canning.in the end when we reach top there
got so many ppl.not even scary luh.hahahahaha
just nice when we headed to bus stop zave just miss her last bus
i missed my bus too but in the end there was still a last bus for mi
how lucky:)
in the end i feel quite bad to like leave them behind
so i asked themover to my house just now dad was not in good mood i ask her over too
my father wasnt home yesterday so the house are just us!
they damn funny.they went to kop yakun bread luh
come my house party with bread,
all din really sleep .all was talking slacking like fuck
and den by 5 plus i couldnt take it i just take a nap
guanhong huiying zave jovy all damn busted okay
they went to disturb ppl at the bus stop.
they put water inside paket drink and den throw it out of the window
when there's nothing more for them to throw
they took the bread n throw at ppl-.-
joelle slept until her dad called.she's damn shocked
in the end she went home her dad din scold n tell her if she's tired dun have to go work
whenever huiying run around i will say that later my floor spoilt
den she will chase after mi n poke mi.hahahhaa
after all those throwing n running around my house.all were tired n hungy
so went for breadfast at market
after breadfast everybody all wan die alr
so i did the sweeping n moping of the floor
huiying jovy n meiyi all staring at mi when i was sweeping the floor
i felt so weird luh.den i shouted never see ppl do housework before
everybody laugh.
after doing housework damn hot luh
went for a quick shower n den i fell asleep
everybody was like sleeping alr by the time
hahahaha.so when my dad comes home
also the time they leaving already
seriously hanging with them is really damn fun okay
we shall have more this kind of toning thing
hahahaha.provided the next day got no event luh
hahahahaha.when they left i continue to sleep
and den went to attend cousin wedding.
drink n eat n everything den home!

sometimes i think i am letting go of you alr
but den again.this time i realise it's isnt that hard
because u dunno the fact that i had actually fall for you
so it was so much easier to let go
thank god it was easy or else i will be lost of what to do

okay im damn tired!shall stop here:)

2008-07-19T01:01:00.005+08:00

today after work tot of going home early be a good girl
in the end it was like peak hour
i couldnt even got up to the bus so i went to bukit merah in the end-.-
den slack talk eat everything
hahahahaha
jovy wan to watch fireworks cause of somebody leh
wow what a good planning,hahahahah
jovy u are a good girlfriend man!
hahahahah
actually i got nothing to post luh

OMG!U ARE A FUCKING BITCH I SWEAR!
I NEVER SEEN ANOTHER BITCH LIKE YOU BEFORE
SEE UR FUCKING BLOG SO SAD AND DEN I TAG N CARE FOR U AS A FRIEND
YOU WERE LIKE BITCHING WITH YOUR FRIEND SMELLY PPL ARE BAD!
WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK U ARE?
U ARE WORSE THAN PROSTITUE IN GEYLANG LUH!
GWENDOLYN TAN SWEE LIAN SUCKS LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!
SHE'S THE WORSE PERSON I EVER SEEEN!
SKIN SO THICK LIKE FUCK!
SHE THINK SHE'S SO HOT ! PLS LUH
I THINK MY LITTLE TOE IS SO MUCH HOTTER THAN U!
EVEN MELVRICK THINK THAT U ARE GROSS LUH
YOU THINK HE REALLY LOVE YOU?
OMG PLS TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR LUH
I THINK KNOWING YOU IS SUCH A DISGRACE IN MY LIFE LUH
INFRONT OF UR CLIQUE LIKE SO NICE N EVERYTHING
BEHIND THEM BACKSTABBING THEM.OMFG
U ARE WORST THAN A BEAST LUH.
YOUR BRAIN ARE JUST FOR DISPLAY JUST LIKE PIG BRAIN!
I THINK PIG ARE MUCH MORE CLEVER THAN U LUH.
IF NOT FOR SOMEONE I WONT EVEN TAKE PITY ON YOU
OH WELL I DUN THINK U DESERVE MY PITYSM NOW
GOSH U MADE MI WANNA PUKE.
AND DUN THINK I DUNNO U ASKED UR FRIEND TO SPAM MY FUCKING BLOG
U THIS FUCKING SLUT!
http://www.feelingdelirious.blogspot.com/
THIS IS HER FUCKING BLOG
PLS FEEL FREE TO SPAM IT WHATEVER YOU GUYS WANT
BECAUSE IN BETWEEN HER LEG IS ITCHY YKNOW.
SHE'S BLACKLISTED IN HER WHOLE GROUP OF FRIENDS ALREADY!

i seriously miss you alot eh
i dunno why im feeling this way but den again
i wont let this feeling to continue
because there will never be a starting for us anyway
it's just that time that passes us seem to be in a blink
i was blind in the past,never actually tot u were just there right in front of mi
but it's too late for mi to even so anything now
it's meaningless for mi to even carry on this feeling of mine
everything was just one sided all along
still i never regret knowing you in my life

2008-07-18T00:26:00.003+08:00

woahs!damn tired today
12 to close den what?during break eat still can accidentally bite my lips
bleed luh:(insufficent blood already luh
den thinking of going where tmr
feel like paying a visit to jovy
ppl working leh.hahahahah.somemore i finish at 5 so like nothing to do also
hahahaha.today nth much to say luh
i did one very stupid thing today
my***** very itchy
den i cant tahan alr
i run inside kitchen to scratch
the moment jo saw mi so kan jiong she tot wat
in the end i was scratching my******
she laugh like mad.there was a few times when i was talking to her
she give mi some stupid face luh.like from metta like that
also like kanna feats.woahs damn funny luh
there was this customer damn funny
after she ordered her food,i ask her if she wan any drink
den she open her mouth damn BIG
like the water is infront of her alr.when i looking at her face i wanted to laugh luh
but i cannot.after i finish the transaction i laugh like mad!
she some more can say byebye after i serve her her order
not as if she's leaving the restruant alr luh.hahaha
finish doing closing went dwn to 7-11 to get cigg
now jo turn to get itchy
woah!she WORSE than mi okay
hahahaha
she go open her***** to scratch luh.
no bad wat!air it some more
hahahahahaha
today was a damn funny day.
with her around at work with mi
the time just files so fast
daddy i love you:)
omg i feel like some pb.but it's okay.
just brotherly love.not other kind of love luh

today u din msg mi
i dunno why recently just misses you so much
chicken this part is for you de:)

let mi face back to the reality
more or less the answer is there for mi to see already
i dun wan to think of you anymore
just left everything as it is
im tired of searching n trying to find that feeling already

2008-07-16T23:40:00.010+08:00

My tatto :D

Daddy`s tatto ->.

today outing with daddy
like finally after so long and we are going out together again luh
some more today never like nid rush here n there
today wanted to watch movie.but den the movie we wan to watch it's damn late
so we planned to go find zetty den to town
in the end we headed over to penisula
and i got another tattoo.omg it was fucking pain okay
even until now luh.but i really salut the tattoonist okay
he did it so paitiently n nicely for mi
though it's pain n everything but i liked the result so not too bad luh
hahahahaha.when the pain was on my back i was actually thinking of the pain u given mi
i did enjoyed myself today daddy!thanks.
next month we shall having a shopping outing and not tattoo outing hor-.-
i think i can no longer work in that bloody place anymore
im quitting real soon.no other reason
just for that bloody china guy.
im too lazy to write everything that happened today
cause my back is hurting mi badly
but one thing i wont forget to post it
jo wanted to look at my tattoo so she moved my shirt den nvm i bear the pain
den after looking she still go cover it.omg i shouted like hell luh.she still can laugh.
nvm.i will be waiting for ur next tattoo ok.hahahaha
and im telling the whole world joelle got STM!
hahahahahahaha

and everytime i think of you
it's so hard to think of any other thing except for you
you revolve around my world
but still it's just a dream after all:)

2008-07-16T00:19:00.005+08:00

today slept till like afternoon
omg feel like pig
and den went over to huanted court to ball
guanhong say will got uncle
in the end dun have leh
bluff us leh.hahahha
and ah jac did her part to make huiying to come down for ahem ahem lo
hahhahaha
b4 playing went to eat.jovy poke mi.nvm
after that leon reach liao.she poke mi
the last person is huiying to poke mi.nt bad what so many ppl like to poke mi huh
i knw i got alot of fats la dun nid like that de hor.hahahah
all of them was playing ball
i was listening to ah tang mp3
hearing the yi ge ren shen huo
suddenly emo.den went behind the staricase wanted to hide and cry
but that stupid huiying come and throw leaves at mi
when ppl is emoing?wth?
hahahahah.den i buay ta han i just go sit behind candy
jitao my tears just come out.candy tio chua.so funny
busy asking for tissue.den play match
i was playing relax game
so few ball went in luh.huiying was like wow emo den can go in ball nvm
somemore hor.she say i play ball like kanjiong spider
in the today she look more like kanjiong spider than mi luh
hahahahah.was really emo-ing all the way
ask chicken come down pei mi oso dun wan
very sad and dulan u knw,nvm.
while changing shoe i wanted to listen to song
sudddenly i got a msg!and i got so high over it luh
ppl thought that i was crazy luh.wth.
in fact i myself think so.hahahaha
and i dunno what's wrong with leon today
she's like having moodswing and everything
den headed to jovy hse there eat
eat alr go home.
otw to bus stop i forget what i say that bear bear alr luh
den she pinch mi damn hard.omg it was damn pain luh,.
hahahaha.anyway i think she's damn man luh
can be bung liao luh
hahahahaha.hopes she dunno abt this
or else i will get kill
and jovy dun say anything okay
hahahahaha

somtimes i feel that we have a connection
but den again
on the other hand there's something stopping us
well i really dunno
got connection or not.i dun really care already.
because i dun see the point anymore
i dun wan to think so much abt you already
that's all i got to say actually

2008-07-15T02:09:00.002+08:00

today wake up like noon that time
was super tired like finally had a good sleep already
im so sick and tired of all those spammer so i had to like put it private
omg how irritating luh
hahahahaha.not that im scared just that i really get so sick of it
i really wan to like block it from my blog
it's so annoying.gosh
went to town with cw n daddy
bought ck perfume and den head to yishun ball
jovy couldnt make it.fight with her mum
line got cut off.poor her luh
at yishun din wan to play ball
cause i wasnt having the right attire
balled awhile at nee soon den headed to chong pang to ball
otw there meiyi bought man ya tang?and den it's seem so watery cant even make it stay
in the end the whole sweet drop making the whole hand so sticky
zave got fucking pissed.i bought candy floss
seem like small kid.guanhong say i act cute
pls luh.so long never eat liao ma.hahahah.wat to do lor.
at chong pang cc balled awhile den listen to song emo
huiying was at oppsote court playing match with others.zave was playing with meiyi
guanhong played with mi awhile den he play alone
oh one thing damn funny
while we were onthe way to chong pang
huiying n guan hong had a small little convo
here it goes
huiying:that fat guy over there i know
guanhong:that fat girl over that i know
huiying:who who?
guanhong:you luh!(the you refers to huiying)
omg guanhong n mi laugh like mad
she at there scolding us luh.hahahah
it was damn funny.huiying today abit siao
like forget take medicine
keep on tickle mi.jovy maybe because u not around luh.
she got no ppl disturb she come disturb mi leh,u la.hahahah
still got more thing but im damn lazy to like blog already
hahahaha

seems like it's a habit for mi to blog abt you everyday alr
no matter how hard i try.it seems like i still failed my task
i din wan to look at you or even think of u at all
but i just couldnt control myself
it's kind of obvious i dun stand a chance anymore
but why are things still like that?
if i could easily fall for you
i can easily let go of you too right?
but things are not showing mi to let go
instead it seems like i cant take my eyes off you anymore
it's too hard for mi not to look at you alr
i cant control myself alr.my feeling for you are totally mixed up.
i give myself sometime.to really let go of you
because i dun wan to make myself so miserable anymore already

2008-07-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

FUCK IT OKAY!
i really really fucking hate it when he touch my laptop okay!
yesterday nothing happen FINE!
but TODAY!EVERYTHING IN MY LAPTOP WAS GONE LUH!
ALL MY SONGS!fuck luh
i already have enough luh
ccb!just stop touching it will you!
this is one of the reason why i dun wan teach u luh
for what teach u!in front of mi u can do i correctly
when im not around things like this got to happen likr WTF!
AND THAT CHINA DOG HAVE TO SCREW MY DAY TOO!
so what if he is the manager
pls luh dun think so highly of urself luh
trying to be a role model in front of us
behind u are havinga affair with a MARRIED WOMAN!
like what a role model u are luh
fuck you man!if u wan perfection!
go and find it!dun come here and lecture us la!
fuck off from us and go as far as u can!
dun think u are a first asst u noe EVERYTHING!
sic dn even do this kind of thing to us luh
hello this is singapore not china!
wan do this kinda of thing GO BACK THERE AND DO!
just fuck off from here luh!
and trust mi im not going to work in your shift
even if im working.i will not do the things u wan mi to do
u will not get ur way done well!
this is what u get for making mi.not only i will so this kinda of thing
u get it from the rest too.just be careful of everything
i will NOT turn up tmr!

daddy even though we hasnt been talking much
but you know i still care for u and still will be here for you
right now the both of us are almost the same boat again
both single carefree and not liking anyone
but ONE thing diff is u looking for daya and im not looking for anyone
heh.but you know as much as we can get the chance to go out together
we will grab the chance to get a gather
and talk abt things we shared.be last time or now.
even the future will never ever change anything:)

perhaps i should just let go of you
because i dun see the point anymore
you love the other party so much
i dun think i should tell u or ever let u know abt this
i dunno the next time i see you what will i do
im scared to see you
afraid to look into your eye
trying to escape from you
trying so hard yet a waste of effort
how i wish u could never get my attention
no matter how hard i try not to look at you
it seems like i will still try to get a look at you
try to look at u as much as i can get the chance
as i know that i dun get to see you often
but in this way how can i ever give up
i never thought i will ever fall for you
it's just too sudden for everything like this to happen to mi

2008-07-13T03:05:00.002+08:00

FUCK LA!
im so fucked up luh
i HATE IT when other ppl touch my laptop okay!
esp my dad friend!just fuck off and dun touch MY thing!
seriously i have been in foul mood the whole day alr
i have enough of everything today already
it hasnt been going well today luh
ireally not in the mood to blog already luh
somemore i know so much thing abt u again
shagged already luh
hais

i tried so hard not to look u in the eye
each time i see u it will just go deeper
it's really very hard for u not to get my attention
when i know a little more thing abt u
my whole mood change
it's like so sudden.idk why is this happening
seeing u sad feel like comforting u
yet i disturb u and make u feel more pissed than ever
i really dunno what i should do
i can stop thinking abt u,yet whenever im trying to do so
you appear.i will ask u to stay away from mi
you have someone in ur heart somemore
why should i carry on.i dun get it myself either
sometimes i think is should not see u anymore
but avoiding is not the best solution
instead i think i should just face it
i dun even noe why i will fall for u?
you dun seems the type i will go for
so many question yet no answer

2008-07-12T00:28:00.005+08:00

today work den candy came and fetch mi
she's like some siao char bo okay.
ask mi help her carry bag den keep on beat mi den make my cap
we headed for vivo and den met up with jovy n rest
walked around eat,supposed treat candy eat dinner in the end she bad mood
dunno what the hell happen to her
so i bought her a pen she looked at minitoon before we head to eat
she threw the pen back at mi
den i was like u dun wan throw away lor
i dun even want it.i buy is because see her face black black
wanted to cheer her up den she like that
i was quite pissed luh.in the end she was like ok luh dun so angry
ya what!ppl wan cheer u up den u reject the offer
awhile so high awhile so low.siao lor.
she went off after the dinner
went to walk around vivo
wanted to get that slipper but den it's the last pair i din wan it
finding for wallet din see anything caught my eye
i feel that im damn troublesome
den headed to starbukes to slack
otw i was like laughing and den stupid jovy keep disturbing mi
nvm jovy u just have to wait
u disturb mi more
i disturb u double.even though i noe who u wan
but i wont use that person disturb u.INSTEAD i use another girl's name disturb
hahahahaha.u are gonna be so dead this time round!
dun tell mi u can tolerate because i wont be the only one disturbing u
i start the ball rolling and the rest will just continue for mi:)

if one day i happen to see you again
i really wan to know what im feeling for you
because right now i am just so unsure of my feeling toward you
it's too complicated.never feel like this before
and never wan to feel like this again.
it's jsut so mixed up
and everytime i think of you
my face will be burning red
is this what they call love?
well i really dun know.

2008-07-11T00:24:00.002+08:00

dunno why today like got alot of msg like that
but all those i dun feel like entertain ones msg mi luh
but i entertain them in the end-.-
so that girl ask mi out.and den i said ok?
cause she just broke up lalalalalala
and den i damn bo hua can
it's like she ask mi out de leh
den she ask mi to pay for her dinner
bullshit luh.BOBIAN i got to pay luh!
hopefully she dun go eat what expensive thing
OR ELSE I KILL HER!hahaha
somemore go n cut her hand
she will get it from mi tomorrow!
i saw ah tang today hor!see mi den hide hide here and there
like some little mouse like that
and ahtang u dun miss mi de lo
the no. of time u go out with him soon going to be more than mine okay!
idiot.dun bluff mi.lol
today after work plan to put tattoo
but den i din see anything nce or suitable for mi to put at my back so i din put any luh
finding for design in process already.hahaha
den went to yishun play ball
in the end like never play-.-slacking instead of playing luh
raining somemore abit the lazy luh.wahahahaha
den that stupid huiying hor keep disturb one lor.
damn idiot can.den everyone disturb jovy abt ahem ahem.
hahahaha.its kind of a fun day today luh
that huiying tmr better come out together with us.den i can disturb more:)

i dunno why when i look at you
i just feel so shy.it's not the first time
i tried not to think abt it.i tried not to look at you
somehow u just caught my attention
without fail my eye will just be on you
when u look back i feel so shy but i acted as though nothing is happening
from what i can see from u is u are shy too
why is this happpening?but i noe u are not the kind of person i think to be
it's just happen so sudden even i myself dunno why is this happening
hope to see you soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELL!

2008-07-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

today work from morning to night
msg msg msg alot alot of ppl
and den something happen in store
everyone just seems to be in bad mood
but thing were okay after that luh
hm daddy were so sweet just now ok
she was like i dunno why everyone make mi feel irritated except u(the u is refer to mi!)
den i feel so shy but i din say out luh
because i always feel that i am not a good friend because of my bad temper luh
but den she said that really make mi feel like im a good friend luh
i really feel very good okaye!but oso shy luh
stupid headache why keep finding mi?go away luh!
okay i nid to get a cap real soon
im putting new tattoo soon!
so excited!hahahaha
im a NOOB at clubbing ok!
why nobody believe that it was my first clubbing at play?
i felt like a idiot there luh
hahahahaha
nvm when im18 den i go luh
i very stupid one wat
hahahahahah
not like some ppl who always club
if u noe who u are:)obviously im referring to the idiot whom i always msg n ask her entertain mi!
hope that u n ahem ahem get back luh
cause on the other hand i oso got help u k
hahaha.so right now i think u both jsut get along as it is n study for o's
and the next step is to get closer than before
if there's love it will never end
no matter how little it will still be there n keep growing
unless u are pushing it down n not letting the feeling to grow.
cheer up.u said u dun wan to get distrActed but u ARE easily distracted
so focus ON mi!no luh kidding.focus on ur studies of course never forget abt her:)
that's abt it!

2008-07-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

i dunno why
i just have been having terrible headache luh
like wtf is this happening to mi
anyway i miss her luh
she just make mi ..........
today went to hospital today
and den i saw this damn bloody hot nurse alright
den tat adel very kpo wan leh
keep on wan see which girl
haiyo
den hor someone get emo
dunno how to help sia
shit luh
thurs fri got to work with china dog
fcuk sia
i dun wan work with him luh
im not against china ppl
it's just him only
well hasnt been feeling well
so dun think will be online that much

to daddy wish u all the best to find daya alright
if there's fate
im sure u will find her one
right now dun think so much
or say what nid love luh wat shit
u get wat im trying to say de luh

2008-07-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

suddenly i miss daddy so much
i really feel like dragging myself to mit her
but den im having terrible headache right nw
and HE ask mi to go shesha with him
i feel like?bt den i am having terrible headache
gosh what should i do?
i mean like he over there so sad.
den another side i miss her so much
den on the phone got another sad one
i wish i could help u
but u noe him.he dun like to say things out
im sorry.i tried to make ur smile
it seems like i failed my test

to you i dunno what's wrong with u?
i trust that u can take care of her
but den what are u doing to her?
u are not the same old u anymore
even though i dunno u for very long
but again think abt the happy moment we used to had?
the movie n everything?
why arent u really talking to mi nw?
are u avoiding mi?

i was talking to her this few days
den again i found out thing i din wan to knw
but it's actually okay
because revenge is what u deserve
anyway the revenge i got was more of money den love
u din really hurt mi that much
the reason why i treated u so gd nt because i love you.more of guilt i think
the reason why because i thought if the past n think that i should make it up to u
and i did.and u think u success in taking revenge on mi?
i noe u feel good abt it.seeing mi sad n all makes u feel happy n thinking i deserve it
finally i see ur true colour
image of u were so perfect until things happen so badly
i really hope that if there's anything happen
pls.go to ur friend instead of mi
maybe u will go to him?idk.heh

den to this fanny fong!
i know u read my blog ok.
hahahah.i will go try think of the past de!
ahahahhaha.i wan to see how sot am i in the past leh
u say mi sot sot.wan die hor.
i send u for couselling ah
ahahahahah

2008-07-05T01:45:00.002+08:00

really hope things will go fine alr
hope that u guys are really happy.i admit defeat alr anyway
because i really want to put an end to everything alr
hms.it's time to let go and move on
this few day hasnt been talking to daddy much
she's busy with her own thing n i am busy with mine
so nth much to blog abt
just worked den ball lor
alot of fanny thing happen when playing ball luh

daddy this is for u
one fine day we shall really ton
we talk abt everything
let whatever is happening now goes on
as time pass,it will go off

these post are for the spammer:)

2008-07-04T00:29:00.004+08:00

to those spammer who spam my blog

thanks for ur tag:)

i know u guys dislike mi

think that im ugly or whatsoever

hahaha i admit it okay?

u guys win:)

im lazy to reply the tag luh

so im bloggin it:)

i really dun mind if u can scold mi or what because nobody is perfect

u may think that u can be really good friend for helping ur friend to scold mi

same to my friend who helped mi rite?

why not just make peace?u may think that im being hypocrite here?

but im not.let's not quarrel anymore

for what have wars in the blog?

i gt nothing more to day if u wan to continue to spam my blog.

because i will read what guys will write and i got nth more to say

i admit whatever u all say is right okay

i dun wan to fight with anyone

u all can dislike mi hate mi and everything

because we are not even friend.maybe we can try making friend with each other?

i noe u guys wont wan.but that's how i actually make friend

in the past i had spammer.yet nw im friends with them.

not friend i meant very good friend

but if u all wan to continue to scold mi n dislike mi den okay lo

dun get my parent involve luh.my mother die already u all still wan say until like that

if u guys happen to be in my shoe now u guys wun feel gd either

to u all nw may think that im talking crap.but it's true

u all may think that im acting kelian.but im nt,im speaking from the bottom of my heart

i came from a broken family,nt long after that my mum came of jail

den what happen next.she passed away

im only left with a dad nw.n one of the tag still curse my father die.

if ppl say this to u what will u all feel?

no matter how angry u all get with mi.dun get my parent involve.

if really continue to get my parent involve either i put private profile or change blog link

i have no back bones alright.i humji.i cannot take what ppl say abt my family

my family never have a gd reputation.

nw even outsiders who dun even noe my family like that say abt them

im deafeated by u guys k?u all win the battle liao

happy liao hor.

daDDY bought this for mi:)

i love star to the core alright:)

but den again.it kind of remind mi of why i start to love star too

even though i regretted what i did in the past.i tried to make it up to her,

but she's doing it back to mi double hard,.i deserve it anyway.

new tattoo coming up:)

that's all for today

2008-07-01T01:43:00.002+08:00

let's start the day today
somebody msg woke mi up today luh
so early in the morning
wow the msg make mi angry but den after that i dun even think i care
hahahahhaha.because i dun want to get affected by it
den she just tell mi nid to shit.i told her she made mi wanna vomit
and den ask her go shit luh.she tell mi lazy.toilet too far
LOL.and den we msg msg she randomly tell mi she nid to fart
like i can control her fart like that?hahahaha
after that cant get to sleep called joelle told her abt that msg
and den went to bath meet her went to hougang get something
den we start the day with all our crappy nonsense AGAIN
we never failed to make each other to stop laughing
whether we are sad or not.we still will have stupid thing for that day
hahahaha.emo also emo together de ma.hehe.
cabbed to work.the cb uncle took fucking long way
long way nvm he took the way got TRAFFIC JAM
stupid lor.somemore i late for work already luh.
reached work rush like siao
and den the counter machiam fight war like that
after working not long.amanda came.
disturb mi like siao.ask mi got bottle green tea not.when we only sell can green tea
den i was like sorry we are not a provision shop here
hahaha.den jo wan take straw cos i give her drink den she wan disturb mi
ask mi get straw for her den i ask her to fuck off.hahaha
they went to suntec when i was working.and den jo bought a shirt for mi!
THANK YOU!but it was AMANDA who choose it:)
hahahah.not saying anything here luh
jo i noe what u are thinking out there ok:)
hahahahaha.den hurry serve the customer
and den clean up the whole counter
hahahaha.clean up already have to clean up lobby
because that attachment crew made the whole lobby so dirty
after cleaning all those tray
i went around wiping the table and asked jy to step yi ge top up all e thing
den the lao gui bu came in swinging her plastic bag n diao mi
fuck i got panicked luh.my pant were dropping sia
den i hurry pull up the pant she still scold aitin
fuck sia.feel like telling her she not happy talk to mi la
scold aitin for fuck?it's not even her fault luh
cb i do good thing u never say luh
den all the bad thing keep say out.i work for aitin n not for the company hor!
aitin leave i also leave luh.
who wan stay in ur fucked up company luh?
show bias one.nid ppl por u den u happy
ppl say u den u fucked them and make them no good life
what kind of superior are u man?to mi u are not superior to mi
u are just some fucked up bitch who nid ppl get into ur good books luh
den lao gui bu left liao i quarrel with aitin den went to count stock for her
today month end luh.bo bian
finish closing went to buy cigg with jo.
den we sat at lobby there chi chat den jo took my phone put negative
she say wan see got ghost not.den i fucking focus on the phone
she suddenly scream.wow i jump sia
scared mi like fuck!she still at there laughing like mad
like some siao char bor!
den after that we heard some sound
she got scare den we hurry go in kitchen
we left a empty cup in the lobby
after vincent left,i went to put chair back to lobby
i wan to throw the cup away
but wtf did i see?i dun see any cup on the table out there?
i wanted to look for the cup see where is it
but jo ask mi dun look for it luh.
got abit freak out luh.keep on having goosebump today
feeling cold all the way until leave store
went for supper with aitin and jo
aitin send us home.that's how my day ended.hahaha

2008-06-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

Instruction: Remove one question and add in your personal question. Tag 10 people in your list & list them out in your post. Notify them in their chat box that they have been chosen!
(01) What is my full name?
LIM LI LING:D heh quite proud eh?
(02) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
bali?the sea scenery is the best:)
(03) what i the stupidest thing u had done?
acting like a idiot in front of joelle?hahaha
(04) Do you think money can buy happiness?
if money can buy happiness it could buy anything alr.hahahaha
05) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
i wan to slim down.im too fat.hahaahha
(6) Do you encourage girl to admit their love to guys?
of course.if u love that someone PROVE it.n not say it:D
(7) What's love?
love?dun ask mi because i dunno too:)it's too complicated to know what's love.
(8) What do you dream of doing in the future?
i want to be a police.but looking at myself now i dun think it could ever come true because i only had a N level cert and i FAILED it:(
(9)List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
she have a sense of humour and a very good friend and nonsense enough =D
(10) What makes you happy?
friends make mi happy.of course money too=D but money cant buy eveything
(11) What type of person do you hate the most?
those backstabber who always bitch abt ppl.
(12)If You Do Not Have A Boyfriend/Girlfriend,Do You Feel Like Having One?
yes because i wan to take care of someone who i could love no because i dun think there's a need to.what for get into relationship and get urself hurt for nth.if that person doesnt love u as much?
(13)Who is the most important person in your life?
friends and family are the most important in my life because they will stand by mi no matter what happen.i just tend to love them soooo much=)
(14)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
trust between everyone.
(15)Do you have a crush on someone now? Who is it?
i dunno?maybe yes maybe no?not confirm.hahah
(16)What do you like to see the most?
movie!
(17)Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you like him/her?
of course!like i said if u like that person den go for it.hahaha
(18)What do you want the most now ?
money and most importantly more friends:)
(19) If the rumors of the end of the world is true. What is the last thing you wna do?
of course hug my loves ones before the world end.also do what i been wanting to do.

okaye my friend told mi it was supposed to be 20 question but there are only 19-.-

today some ppl disturb mi when i working
i was serving customer den joelle at there hoo hoo haha like some monkey
just nice i got sunburn den so call got natural blusher luh
i keep on laughing like some mad ppl la
today alot of ppl man.tired luh
wow gt this damn girl caught my eye la.but i din approach her
i forgot to give her the soup den i wanted to pass it to her alr
i scared too hot for her to hold so i offered to bring it for her to her table.
she was like nvm nvm den i oso say nvm nvm
the whole thing was so funny lor
den junyan keep making mi laugh ma
i wanted to serve the customer say hi how can i help den i went to say hello to that customer
i saw liwei today with this two girl
the tall girl the way she talk very scary so i din wan to serve so i asked junyan serve
junyan made a cuastomer angry today luh
he serve the bowl and the drink n the mixed fruit cup alr
he forgot the soup.den the customer ask if she's supposed to have the soup
junyan was like oh ya.den the customer give one fuck up face n said OMG
i start to apologize to that customer but she still give that fuck up look
n eh said becos of MY BOXER he lost 10.20.hahahahha
hahaahhaha.after work head over to daddy hse
while waiting for her to blog finish i was watching tv n talkin to her abt work thing
my back was facing joelle father where he was sleeping at the sofa
he suddenly wake up n said eh joshua
den when he realise it was mi.he just kept quiet.so funny luh
while i blogging halfway through we went for our SUPPER!
when crossing the road the stupid car still so far den keep flashing light at us la
joelle run like the car wan bang her like that
we have to like cross another road joelle bluff mi like got car act like some shit
den i got a scare n scream like some shit
den joelle see cockroach siam like siao
while eating joelle do alot of stupid thing
she was like shaking body n say she's turning 18 alr
den she started using her chin to make her chest move like how those muscular guy does
when heading back in the lift i said cockroach den she jump la
so funny some more got one mac delivery guy inside oso luh
oh ya suddenly remember joelle wanted to say eyelid was twitching in chinese den she said facelid instead.so it sound like lianpi zai tiao.meaning her face skin is jumping
wow i din noe ur face skin can jump leh.pro leh u
teach mi leh:)
i din wan to laugh but it was too funny
she din even realise she said it wrongly till i laugh it out luh
den she ask mi give her chance not to throw face ma

2008-06-29T01:12:00.002+08:00

okay what should i start with today?
maybe the time when i woke up
wake up for breadfast den training?
in the end im the only one eating-.-
hahahaha.im some animal which make the sound oink la
hahahahaha.den reach court
fuck luh.alot of ppl leh
i was damn tired despite the good sleep last night(:
by 11plus all those annoying army guys left
we can train(:tiansoon reach alr leon still haven reach
tiansoon start training by 1 on 1
captain start the ball rolling den follow by jovy
i was the last to play with him
but den he took 5.in the end he forgot abt it
we smoke den play 4on4
the sun is like fucking hot today dunno why
so last part was like stupid guanhong ask mi play 1 on 1 with him
den i say ok lor.and den tiansoon say he wan play with mi
but i din wan to luh.cause i dun really like him
he like wan act until he very good like thAT lo
he was like telling guanhong not to give mi any chance when playing
den i like whatever?so i started playing with him under the burning sun?
and den i went in the first ball with anyhow shoot one?
hahahaha.so tycho can?den stupid guan hong keep on smack my basketball away la
fuck leh him
we so tired luh,den last 3 ball for mi but for him last ball alr.
but i dunno why
i just keep on anyhow shoot lay up all.den go in leh.so happy can,haha
i felt so proud of myself today!
because i WON him!surprisingly luh.usually lose wan leh
in the end got a bad sunburn luh
damn pain now.stupid joelle keep disturb say i blushing the whole day
such a pain in the ass
thanks lee jun jie cheer mi up when i was so pissed off at work luh
due to the fucking schdeule luh.make mi damn no life alright
everyday closing.got money so what?big fuck ah?
den saw alot of girls today
hahahahahaha.disturb joelle until siao.
i think joelle is crazy luh,hahah,cause just now i was looking if the dustbin nid change bag not
den joelle disturb mi.i just like raise my hand only
she tot i wan box her.cause she playing boxing game with mi ma.
but i din even touch her leh.she siam like siao.hahah
she keep on must in front of mi do stupid thing wan leh
fall down luh,wow luckily i today ALMOST fall she din see
but i told her luh-.-den she's going to blog it.asshole la u
hahahahaha.den finish closing wait for the stupid bus so long
we cabbed home:)damn tired luh
im going to sleep.wan die liao.

2008-06-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

to the spammer in my tag board
hey thanks for ur advise
because i already know what to do in my life alr
not only because of what u said
also because i sort out my thinking already
i will be waiting for ur reply tag

today work balled
wow damn tired i tell u
omg SHE msg mi today ok
so happy luh
i felt so lame nvm
but den again
interesting thing will be happening in my life:)

2008-06-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

today thing went PERFECTLY fine
gosh i dunno what get into mi
but it just shock mi luh
nvm i noe i could get over it wan
hmmm
today in store so funny la
zetty say if she hit 2ooo mi n cw gt to do tiger dance
like wth?but because of delivery thing make her piss off
delivery should end with catering not cash out
she go cash out in the end short money
den she have to do overring for the delivery
hahahaha.i kept laughing at her luh
den she scold mi cb wth
i keep on disturb her ask whether she still wan mi perform for her not
she ask mi to go away dun disturb
so funny ok
den i keep ask ariff help her
ariff say dun wan cause later she scold him
today ended happily luh
joelle more funny la
slip n ALMOST fall okay
she acted nothing happen like that
AND i took a girl number
name linda?age 19?
hahahaha
but it wasnt for mi
because not my type luh
it was for .... lor
today did thing super fast did alot of prac work for tmr opening
gosh damn tired.closin tonight opening tmr
guess that's how my life gonna be
damn no life
i nid to like find someone real sooon!
but she ah.like that stupid guy,
nvm la.let her be.since she's always so lame
she always create my smile luh
she was there all along but i din see it
now that i saw it.i guess it's too late
tmr work balled home
sat trng den work!
im a busy person man!

to this particular person
JOELLE NG JIA WEN
smile everyday ok
if i can get over it
im sure u can do it too
because we are the same
hahahhaa
and im just saying this after reading your blog
i wont lie to anyone esp myself
what's the point of acting n everything
if i am not happy i will show out
because that's mi!i dun like to keep my emotional
and and and not I DUN wan to settle
it's some bloody bitch just avoid mi like fuck?
i treated her as friend but den u noe what kind of person she's like?
uh huh?i made the choice and it will NOT change anymore
because this time im sure
once or twice play by her was MORE THAN ENOUGH!
i had enough of her fucking nonsense
trying to act mature all in front of mi?
i know im nt gonna fall her fucking trap anymore
anything im here!
dun forget that lolipop friendship k
love you daddy
most importantly i love her more!
daddy u noe who that person is.,hahaha

2008-06-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

this time i am really letting go alr
im not going to say it
im going to do it alright
trust mi ppl in no time i will be the happy go lucky mi again
hahahahahah
guess im nuts
i fucking hell got rashes for yesterday damn rain luh
fuck sia
this post is fucking hell for u
im NEVER going to trust u again
NEVER WILL TRUST U NOW OR FUTURE
because u broke it twice
i gave u the chance snap u lose it
dun ever say i never give u any chance
i gave it to you n threw it away
i may look like the desprate one wanting u so much
let mi get this straight
i let go of u,u wan mi back
so what now?disappearing from mi once again?
nid mi ask mi acc u all
dun nid mi fucking throw mi aside?
i felt so stupid cant believe that im the fool again
again and again was fooled by u
whatever u ask from mi i gave it to you
but i just ask a small favour from u
u fucking hell dun reply all
alright since this is what u best at right
dun blame mi if i have to do something that will make u regret the rest of ur life!
just think of what u are doing to mi now
play mi again?just like what he is doing to you
so you must do this to mi huh?
i never wan to think so lowly of u
but U PUSH MI TO THIS EXTEND
dun blame mi for anything that's gonna happen
melvrick is so much better mi what
just go back to him ok
u get hurt all im NOT going to care anymore because im not the one u needed anyway
friend?this is how u treat ur friend?
u nid them u talk to them
u dun nid them u threw them aside
what a GOOD friend u are
i never regret knowing u
because u TAUGHT MI ALOT OF THING ABT LIFE!
u taught mi never to trust someone so easily anymore
thanks for letting mi know ur true colour
i neverknew u were this kind of person
because till know i am denying it
but u really force mi to accept the FACT
what is the fact?the fact is u are just fooling mi around
with the plam of ur little finger
i was lead on by u for FUCK?!
i was just too stupid
i was fool already
this really teach mi to NEVER trust u anymore
BITCH LISTEN TO THIS CAREFULLY
I AM BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU
YOU DUN DESERVE ANYTHING BETTER THAN THIS

2008-06-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

this might be the first and the last craziest thing i done for a girl
i never did something like that for a girl before
it's like i know the possiblity for mi to see u is small
but i really just wan to see u
just one glance or a sec will do
but it's like u cant even do mi this favour to let mi see u
u having dinner and ur mum dun allow u to go out
i understand
but was it so hard for u to actually go to ur bedroom window to let mi see you?
then u could actually for him stay out until so late
quarrel with ur parent like there's no tmr
this actually show how little i meant to you
what do i get for getting drenched in the heavy rain
riding the bike from one place all the way to ur hse there
in the end what did i get?disappointment
not only that.never did i will expect that i will fall on the road while going back
how unlucky i was?not able to see someone i miss so much
and to know how little i meant to that person
disappoinment.follow by injuries and wet like fcuk!
maybe to u.u actually tried alot for mi alr
but to mi i dun feel anything.i tried enough!
im giving up alr.today u show mi how much u actually love mi
im contented alr.i know u love mi is enough i wont ask for more
u always said that i keep asking for more
i tell u this i wont ask anything from u already
maybe to you,u may think that im some crazy freak
suddenly just appear there just for a glance of that person
i meant it as a surprise.but from what i can see from u is u think that im crazy
some ppl think that it might be sweet if their the other half could actually do this for her
but for my case the person i love n tried so hard to woo
thinking that im crazy to do this
this is what i deserve
i wont do it alr
trust mi.enough is enough

2008-06-24T01:01:00.002+08:00

ok for what i can say nw
is i really dunno what im feeling for the moment of time
maybe i shuld just tell u that i needed time]
because im very confused right now
it just happen too fast i cant absorb so much thing in such a short time
i still cant get over what happened
i knw everyone do mistake and should deserve a second chance
if u can den give mi some time
but if u cant den u can move on because i cant stop u from doing what u wan
now im having mixture of feeling
talk abt trust it's also kind of mixture
if i can dun think abt it i wont
because i really dunno what im thinkin or feeling right now
there are so many hesitation for mi to take one step
i thinking it very carefully
i dunno why
i never take any precaution before whenever im in this situation
i am scared.i dunn0 what to do
my feeling are nt telling mi anything

2008-06-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

NDP practise is coming soon
i hate it
because it actually remind mi of how i met u and how we fell in love with each other
as day pass it is coming nearer
i dun wan to remember anything that got to do with you
not because i hate you
it's because i love you.the memories were so sweet
i cant forget abt how i met u and how we used to spend our moment together
we were so happy back den
but i know it's the past alr
i nid to look forward because the past present n future will never be the same
the past was so beautiful.how stupid can i get?
i wish u could be out of my mind
but what should i do?
like a lost child on an island
wandering around on the island
thought i found a hand to lead mi
yet now it appears to be gone now n forever
i know that i am tired already
i knw what i should do now already
but den again,im so used to seeing u msg mi whenever i wake up
but now that u got him i got no more msg anymore
i feel kinda weird.but i know as time goes i will get use to it alr
everynow and den waiting for ur msg
but every msg that come always disappoint mi
i fake a smile wherever i go
though it's tiring
but i dun wan those who care abt mi to be worry abt mi
you will always be a part of mi i know this
idiot this time round u are not around when im down
i miss you idiot.where are you?
you were always the one making my smile
now that i need u.u are not there.

2008-06-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

this picture is kind of hot huh

i took this for mr JJ when working

he's a fun person to hang with

a very good friend alright.jj i praise u leh.haha

to put this frankly today wasnt a good day for mi.after so much i did.i realise i was the fool again

im tired already.im hanging there in the middle of no where.no goals no aim.

im left with nothing alr

i cant take it anymore.i may just break down anytime

2008-06-16T02:02:00.002+08:00

thank you for telling mi those thing today
im not saying that u are selfish who never think for mi or anything
but den it's just my feeling
i cant control the way i feel
i tried so hard
at times im so in love with u
yet another time i really wish to give up
something tell mi to let go some ask mi to go for u
i really cant explain
i really dun wish to expect anything from u because i dun wan rush thing
but again im not a very patient person
but i really wan to wait
i noe that u think im rushing u n keep on pushing u
pushing u to the extend u dunno what to do
and feel like escaping
im sorry if i made u feel this way because i dun mean it
u really mean too much to mi already
it's too much for mi to bear if i ever lose u again
it's not that easy to actually forget everything
and i noe i cant and wont be able to forget u
im sorry i din noe it could actually make u feel soo
im just so sorry that's all

2008-06-13T02:57:00.002+08:00

i keep things to myself
i said thing to make u feel better
making u think that i actually really understand u alot n all
i dun think im happy at all
im tired n sick of waiting
but im going on just because of u
i tried to be as understanding as i could
tried my very best to make u happy
i did as much thing as i could
can i still hold on to this?
i din want to say out what i was feeling
because i din wan to hurt u
i noe whatever i say will actually hurt ur feeling
i really cant take it any longer
i need to like vent out everything
im on the verge of breakingdown
but what to do?i have to understand what u need the most now
and what you are actually going through
i tried so hard to the extend i dun think i give myself a space to breath
i dun wanna let u know
i dun wan to stress u or let u think that im rushing u
i dun wan to tell u abt how much i love you n need u
all this will only hold u down
i let time do all the talking.i guess im really tired this time round
but i will try to hold on as long as possible
it's already half a year i waited how much longer?

2008-06-10T00:02:00.003+08:00

some hot bitch took my phone to take picture

my phone got virus sia.hahahahaha

but hot bitch is still hot bitch luh!hahahaha

today went out with cw all.went central find othman

saw mummy choo!so happy ok(:

elaine yeo is so irritating okay

but u noe what i still love you luh.hahaha.im nice luh

im lazy to blog.hahahaa.blog again tmr

2008-06-09T00:58:00.009+08:00

we saw something creepy!

anyone understand this?it's OUR SIGN LANGUAGE(:

it's simply express the way we are:)

not bad uh?quite cute right.okay im crazy!

any comment anyone?our SPECIAL faces:)

*pouts!

so what do you think?man enough?hahas

ok!i look like some gay here.but it's okay.

there are ppl to acc mi:)

okay u guys noe what?

all this pic are liked taken in the middle of the night luh!uh huh!

we were so bored okay.

there are more retarded photo coming up.

im just being lazy alright?pardon mi luh huh.

i never took so much pic in a day before okay.

in the process there was alot of laughter and fun luh.

so i actually enjoyed the moment.there are more gay photo

we actually look like PB in some photo

some picture we looked quite bitchy ok?

damn nonsense la.shall upload more:)

opps i forgot to upload candy photo.she use my phone take her pic

u noe my phone kanna virus till very jialat.hahaha

hot bitch i will upload tmr:)

2008-06-08T01:37:00.002+08:00

okay!that's it!im fed up loading those photo!

it just cant be uploaded!shall do it some other time den.im tired

that's mi n daddy!we got lots more spastic photo coming up:)

2008-06-06T00:50:00.005+08:00

this coach is the one we love so much.hahahaha.he's so nice okay:)

den this coach is the fierce and direct ones!always scold us

yeah!this are the trophy we won!see we worked so hard.

but the one whose score more is zave la!star player what!

should i say she's my team manager or what?

i dunno leh.wahahaha.

starting from top!(right to left)guan hong(our loves!)

tianshun(fierce idiot!),leon chua xin neh,jovyy ong ah po's

bottom!mi!zave(star player!+captain!)eugenia(PL)

HAHAHAHA not much comment for eugenia all.hahahaha

i cried i feel that i din do well.all i noe is to let the other team score

it was my fault.but the told mi at least we got 1st runner up

they comfort mi.i love my team!we shall join next year again!

2008-06-05T03:20:00.002+08:00

GREATEST thanks to LEE JUNJIE
for helping doing my blogso nicely
but i really dun like pink
but thanks anyway
for the two precious hour of yours
seriously im starting to love my team more
they are what i live for
im gonna work hard for tmr match
no bad words or else kanna foul again:(

so what if they broke up already?
it's none of my business
life still have to goes on for mi
they broke up i must go back to gwen meh?
siao.i cant have my own life?
is that a problem??

to you!
hope u noe who u are.
i bet u noe im talking abt u
thanks for really being by my side okay?
hope we can really like last although we just started
just want to tell u i love you alot!

2008-05-29T01:09:00.005+08:00

if u like him den u go ahead n fuck off from mi okay
STOP LEADING MI ON!
ccb!nb fucker!pcb
just GO to him and have let him fuck until ur cb spoilt la
fucker!

2008-05-27T23:40:00.004+08:00

so im always the one getting dump
i really have no idea of what my life is now
only noe at least im contented
thats all
just forget it
i dun wish to say much
will be mia
byesss

I DIN NOE HOLLAND V 7-11 COULD BE SOOO NICE

2008-05-21T01:45:00.008+08:00

omg u noe that day candy told us hagen daz was actually open till midnight

and GUESS WHAT

we reached there and the shop was CLOSED

nvm candy say got seven eleven wat

also got hagen daz ICE CREAM

i was liked WOW HOLLANG VILLAGE 7-11 HAGEN DAZ ICE CREAM SOOO NICE LEH

in the end we bought one small little cup of hagen daz ice cream

4 PPL SHARE but we got one big tube of bens n jerry for FREE

but den candy say hagen daz nicer

but who knows she eat the most leh

can die!nvm lo.holland v 7-11 very nice leh must go there buy anything if u nid

hahahahahaha

den she was the LAST to reached n FIRST to go la

den we were like FUCKING BORED!

jj n mi was cam whoring la

stupid candy but she bought mi a teenage

GOT JONAS BROTHER!

still stupid jj took it from mi

that's how a day goes again

i cried today thanks to stupid darling

she's like leaving mi very soon

nvm when she already settled at airport terminal 2

i will go there disturb her

dun worry ok!LIMPOGEOK!

HAHAHAHAH

so funny right the name

i saw her wallet

her pic with her husband sooooo funny la

i cant stop laughing ok

and im sooo proud of myself today!

i clean the whole kitchen so nicely when i did my closing

GOOD JOB ANN!

SELF PRAISED EH?*shy shy**hehehe

MADE OF HONOUR IS DAMN WORTH TO WATCH!=D

2008-05-18T03:52:00.004+08:00

will anyone pity my hand?
it was scalded by hot oil.and pardon mi not 100degree C it was 180 degree C ok!
wow damn pain la
now look like got birth mark onmy hand la
fucking ugly/.idiot pls
after cutting my finger den now scalded my hand
anyway today worked morning shift
quite happy.meet weichien went to watch movie
made of honour!omg!it's VERY nice okay
i think u guys should watch it if u love romance
i hold my tears for alot of sences la
one of the sences i really couldnt control
just nice stupid weichien turn to mi n he saw mi cry la
he was so shocked ok!
anyway enough of crapping main point was
there is a gay sitting beside mi
talking so loudly and attracted mi to keep on look at him
den he was holdin his bf hand
i was telling weichien the guy sit next to mi is gay
den he damn irritating n tell mi sitting next to him is a lesbian(which is referring to mi!)
idiot lo but the movie's is damn nice okay
feel like watcing again but nvm!
find for others movie den
seems like sex and the city is nice
but still thinking should i watch it
i very cheapo wan
i nid to see worth it not den go and watch
wahahaha
damn tired shall go to sleep already
night everyone=D

2008-05-14T21:51:00.004+08:00

HEH!this is what we call perfection for mummy n mi:)
but except for the last photo la
today meet up with mummy
like finally so long le
den meet up with her
damn miss her ok
hahahaha
we got so bored n we took no. of photo la
ahahahahah
i slept at 6 this morning
intended to go sch
in the end i fell asleep
so no choice lo
ah lim cal mi i din pick up
can die
hmmmm
so tired
going to sleep already:)
i love all my gans:)

2008-05-11T01:15:00.004+08:00

after work hang out!

testin my new camera eh!hahaha

my poor little finger was cut today
hais
very pain can?cannot stop bleeding leh
first time i cry cause i accidentally cut my finger la
hmmm work was fine i guess
did quite little thing cos my finger was injured
n i feel so xinfu
cos ppl help mi do aLOT of thing
hahahahahaha
maybe i should just stop thinking of those thing
and my life wun be so down
anyway to gwen n melvrick
wish u two all the best
hope that u two together forever n be happily together
as for mi
now work n studies are the most important thing now
if i ever see gwen n melvrick on the street
i will say hi i wun act like i dunno u all
but if u all wants to pretend that u all dunno mi
i gt nothing to say den
because i dun mean anything just by saying hi
to mi relationship comes n go
but friendship doesnt
i still treat u guys as my frenx
i rather to have friends than enemy
though i scolded u in my blog like some fucking bitch
but dun deny that u are not one
okay i feel so bitchy
someone is soooo jealous abt my phone
hahahahahah
i love my new phone
gtg my finger is killing mi
i cant type much

2008-05-10T02:40:00.002+08:00

dunno why
i failed in the hand of two girls
one played mi and now happily in the arm of others happily enjoying herself
another one told mi she love mi
yet she got no choice but to do this to mi
maybe i deserve all this
for what i had done in the past
all this are just killing mi
one by one lie to
i ever asked u to go back to him
ur respone tell mi no
another one also
i said u like u him u also say no
den the outcome is what i had said
maybe it's my mistake for everything after all
i shouldnt blame u all for appearing in my life
maybe u all should blame mi for appearing in the world to cause so much misery
plus so much hatred
this is what i get for what i done
i done once n i get back twice
but whoever do this kind of thing will have no good ending
so dun ever do bad thing
because whatever u are doing now will get back to you twive or maybe even more
i just regretted so much things

GWENDOLYN TAN SWEE LIAN IS A FUCKING BITCH,SLUT,WHORE!PCB U BETTER WATCH OUT.

2008-05-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a fucking day alright
i swear
that fucking bitch patch with the fucking ugly bastard
im not that sad though
but u noe u will have a feeling like an heavy stone weigh down inside u
perhaps fucking bitch together with fucking bastard will be a perfect match
i noe i was the one who had let the fucking bitch down first
i paid back what i owned her
moreover i spend few hundreds on her within few weeks
dont she think that it is very disgusting to kiss someone she dun love
and tell that person she dun love that she's falling for her.
simplay just for one reason
which is REVENGE
i think it's simply too childish
that's why revenge is the sweetest thing of all
she get whatever she wan becos she noe the other party are willing
no matter how hard up that person is
i really hope the bitch n bastard could last long
but if another person try to break u guys up
it's none of my problem
i wun fall for ur trick for the second time
i did ask u before if he ask u for patch
will u go back to him?ur reply was dunno
i guess the answer is pretty obvious now eh?
if i ever met u one day
i noe u will just pretend u dunno mi n give mi faces
bt i dun wish to really have that chance to ever see u again
not only it will pulls mi down
i will have flashback
im afraid of seeing u.images of u in my heart was so perfect until u do this kind of thing
i never did expect u will be this kind of person
it totally make mi speechless
because i din noe u were such a bitch
if u think the time where u guys had break up
he din go for other gals den i think u are wrong
or maybe u can tell mi u guys din even break
n put out false information so i can go find u n u could take ur revenge
den i think it's stupid
i was stupid to trust u this fucking whore!
alot of ppl warn mi abt u
but what did i do?turn on a deaf ears n trusted u
u this fucking bitch
pcb!cheapskate!
u better becareful of what u had did
i will not be doing anything to u
because revenge is sweet
slowly n torturing!
just beware of urself

I SWEAR U ARE A BLOODY SLUT!

2008-05-08T03:34:00.003+08:00

U ARE THE WORST,DISGUSTING AND CHILDISH PERSON I EVER SEEN!
seriously i regretted knowing you
u just RUIN my life like FUCK!
so many mistake i made and i fucking hell cant say the reason just to protect u
in the end i lose all my friends trust
and they hate mi like fuck due to all ur under acts action
all those thing u were the one making those fucking decision
yet i get all the fucking blames from all those fucking ppl
all of them sided u like fuck for no fucking reason
u bloody bitch!
u are the most bitches ever!
i kept things to myself only one person knows everything
or rather how should i put it?
u are just a fucking slut who like to ruin others ppl relationship
u are no different from others bitches
because the only reason i know
u only noe how to play ppl only la
luckily i din even put in anything
only THAT person know everything abt how i feel n think
she knows mi the best

2008-05-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

HAI!
damn fan
dunno wan to quit sch not leh
i mean i wan quit cause i think i cannot pass
den somemore i already tell so many ppl i wan quit le
den dun quit very funny
somemore there are so many idiotic ppl in my class that i will miss
i like to be same class as them
another thing that make mi wanna stay on is
I CONTINUE TO HAVE ALLOWANCE
if i dun have sch = no allowance
haiya dunno la
damn fan can
can die can die
tis is stressing mi out!

2008-05-05T00:21:00.002+08:00

omg
today work is like hell
anyway i saw kenny kenny
hehe
his friend was like asking if he noe mi
den his reply was like dunno
den i told that guy i dunno him
hahaha so funny k
kenny wanted soya sauce fir his edamame
den i told him take from the side station
but to provide my excellent service
i said i will serve to him den he was like dun nid dun nid
but in the end i still deliver the thing to him k
so idiot
i take for him liao he still wan mi take the pepper for him
hahahaha but the whole thing was damn funny la
anyway yoshi came a statue of libretily
whatever!just stand there
dun even help mi to wash la
fucking hell
he really make mi anti china ppl la
which i dun wish to
but the whole thing is unbearable la!
can't stand him okay!
just fuck it
hopefullly aitin n mandy quit soon
den i can quit too
and i could find a better job with so much higher pay

this was supposed to be yesterday 040508!
happy 1year girl
iloveyou soo
nothing could ever tear us apart
muacks
hao xiang hao xiang ni

welll shall end here
TATA!

2008-05-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

im so boooredddd
i think i got nothing to post already la
it's like im working everyday
though tired
but the sake of money
hahahaha
i feel so money face heh
anyway mi n cathy was like bitching n bitching abt GWENDOLYN TAN SWEE LIAN
hahahah
i was like saying she's the worst person i ever seen den i think she's so bitch
or rather worst than bitch.SHE'S A SLUT
den cathy worse!
say she a WHORE!
can die
omg!im happy with my life now
no problem at all
just some fianacial problem
if someone is nice enough to donate money into my pocket
and i swear i will love youu
ahahahha
anyway enough of crapping
im gonna find new job already
because i have to support myself after june:(
poor thing hor
yang mi la
hahahaha
bye bye

2008-04-27T01:09:00.002+08:00

past by some certain place remains mi of that person
i dun wish to mention her name
i dunno whether to hate her or call her a bitch
but as i realised i dun hate her
or rather i dun hate anyone already
yes i might be gross out by *** still
by i also dunno what i feeling now
u may be such a bitch for doing all those thing to mi
but i dunno y i din blame u
and is not because i like u
because i realise i dun even love u
just wanted to make things up for what i done to u in the past
am i supposed to hate u now?
and i seriously nid my thumbdrive la
it's driving mi nuts
i nid to save couple of thing den bring it to sch
can u hurry return?
i din even blame u for anything la
i just want my thing back that's all
i never ask u pay
ever since my psp went with u
it just went hay wires
thanks to u this bitch,or rather fucking slut
watever it is,i wan my thing back
n i wanna have nothing to do with u this fucking childish little kid
when u are wrong u still make it sound as though it was the other party's fault
perhaps i have made the wrong choice by knowing u
if i could have a choice
i rather i have never met u this fucking liar before
and i noe all along i din make the wrong choice for choosing fanny
because even though she hurt mi all.but at least she love mi
and treat mi so much better than u
seriously she won u in everything.
so what melvrick becos of u dun go sch den fetch u to sch n wait for u finish sch?
do u even noe not onli i cheated on u?
he cheated on u too!to think u are soo naive
he asked ****** to wait for him
and before he got together with u
he was bitching abt u
u are too naive to noe anything abt love.
goodbye slut.u are the worst i ever seen

2008-04-26T00:24:00.003+08:00

i feel like a bitch in this position.

soooo tired today
work work work
siann lor
and most importanly i miss moshin:(
she dunno wan lo
and i think she dun miss mi wan lor
i also miss walang suso sooo much also
she called today!
omg miss her sooo much
hahahahahha
my hair is freaking ugly now la
damn sad with my hair now la
hais damn regret cut my hair
my face look so fat now
hahahaha
i damn damn sad now
with my tupid hair
nvm!NEW HAIR NEW LIFE
i miss my baby girl soo much!

2008-04-24T22:21:00.003+08:00

i think i am really giving up on everything
now i really have no goals anymore
nothing
thought i could have a new begining with you
but everything was crushed
i dunno wth i am feeling now
i dun wish to say abt everything
i just feel very screwed now
maybe this is the life i wanted all along
isnt this what i yearn for all along?

i noe u guys are kind of blaming mi for not turning up for court case
n not meeting her before the day
but i am really working everyday
hms i really very sorry for not meeting her before that
i was really tired

2008-04-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

to you
i am really sorry
i cant find back that feeling anymore already
i tried very hard to search back
but i cant
it's nt because i fall for others
it's just that i cant find that feeling i had for u in the past already
it's totally a different feeling already
im really sorry
hais i dun wan to say much to hurt u already
i hate myself
seriously
i feel so bad now:(

2008-04-20T01:05:00.002+08:00

i get to see u today
u were so nice
despite the hot hot weather u still help mi carry my thick thick jacket
LP i love you k
wahhahahaah
anyway thanks LP for always tolerating mi nonsense
despite we seen the ulgyiest side of each other
but i still love you de

cant believe that im the fool again!

2008-04-19T02:27:00.002+08:00

seriously u noe waht i had done to u in the past
so now u only trying to take revenge by making mi to pay everything for u right
oh my gosh
i din noe u were such person
i choose to believe u despite how ppl say u were using mi
till i saw everything with my own eyes
im so disappointed in you
though i still feel bad abt what i did to u in the past
n money could never make it up
but things that u had done to mi for the past few weeks
had it made up for everything?u are really childish
i told u i just wanted to be friend.that's all
i dunno what u thinking all
but as i noe myself im moving on
im better off without u!
n i was stupid to do those thing for u
thinking ur feeling for mi was real
everything was a trap
haha limliling is the most stupidest person in the world
anyway i really miss **** alot leh
will we have a new start?
if we can have
let's hope it will be different from the past okay
i really scared it will be like the past again
promise to love mi k?

2008-04-10T01:14:00.001+08:00

i really think u are jsut playing mi
and u only wan my money and psp la
eh whatever ok
just hurry return my psp la
i dun give a fuck care abt u already la
u took my psp so long already still dun wan return
dun be selfish k
u always say mi selfish all
den never think for u
like u think for mi like that
dun be nonsense la
just tell u this la
i wan have nothing more to do with u already alright
u love melvrick u go la
i cant be fuck care bother

2008-04-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

it just make mi totally confuse
dun make mi detest u when i actually love u
dun do thing to make mi hate u
say u did think of my feeling before u say things to mi
try seeing ur sent item
see how mean were they
u wun noe how much it had hurt mi
u think that im playing u isit?
or rather u are playing mi la
im selfish?i din change?
think abt the past mi n present mi
think abt it la hor
what a few more months and im giving up?
there's still 6 month to ur o's la
it's like half a year ok
ok lo i wait
but if by that time i dun love u anymore
it's not my problem anymore
because i already waited for 4 month
and tell u this the longest girl i ever wait before u is only 3 month
so u count urself lucky
i never ever cause of a gal work so much
sell my phone all cause of a girl
u r the first and last one

2008-04-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

i had been waiting for ur msg today for the whole day
now u noe i cant live without u,u just simply wait for my msg
i msg so many times yet u only reply once or twice
or rather i should say u haapy den reply
not happy den dun reply
or maybe u used mi finish already
so dun think there's a nid to contact mi already
i think that if i dun contact u 2 days
u will be like the past telling mi u already taken we had broke up
but this time round u might say i take it u dun wan to continue anymore
u have the cant be bothered attitude towards mi
can u expect mi to think that actually u love mi?
no what!i tell u this u say im asking for too much
it seems like u are the second fanny
keep beating mi
u make mi dun dare to voice out what i wan anymore
that's why i said u are the gwen i love anymore
because the gwen i love
always listen to what i need
and confort mi when im down n sad
but the present u only know how to shout and scold mi when i voice out my opinion
den u will beat mi for nothing
i hold u by the waist,u push mi away
whatever u are doing are signal of rejecting mi

2008-04-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

im so tired nowadays
ever since after THAT day
i never see u again
whenever someone ask mi abt u
i got no comment
or rather nothing much to say abt u
when they ask mi to date u out
the more i dread to answer this question
because u either not fee or parent dun let
u think i will even attempt to ask u out
im so used to u not replying
not meeting mi
whatever it is
slowly my love will just go away like hw ur love went away
liked u said u used to what i did to u already what i mean in the past
but now im saying it to u
im true to u
but u might think that im playing u
because it seems so fast im giving up
is not i wan to give up
is u make mi wan to give up
whatever u doing are psycial abuse and not loving mi
whatever im doing are like a stupid fool paying to get abuse
fuck it

2008-04-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

been so tired recently
working 5 to close like everyday
so no life ok
but i hope pay day come soon
i wan to shop!jacket shirt and pant
omg?most importantly FACIAL
hahahaha
im so gu nia can
hahahah
i wan to go on diet la
i feel fat okay
hais
im deprived of your love
and sometimes i wonder did i get into the wrong place?

2008-03-31T01:31:00.002+08:00

i dunno whatever im thinking now is right
but i just feel so lost suddenly
i was so sure of what i wanted that time
but right now
it's surrounding that's telling mi one thing
im thinking of another
n u are showing mi another
what am i suppose to do i have no idea
i feel kind of lost n everything seems to be so blur
i dunno should i continue or what
but i used to be so certain u were the one for mi
till that few weeks of hang out with u make mi think u changed
and i been trying so hard to find u back
yet i cant find u
no matter how far i went i goes to every single coner just to look for u
and that feeling of u
but i cant.im like a lost child in the middle of the road
can u give mi the assurance that u will let mi walk into ur heart
like mi find the u that i had been finding for this past few weeks
im looking for u very badly
i needed those hugs of yours
not those violent punch n slaps of yours