Life without you is nothing . ♥

Dear readers ,

i totally have no idea of what i am doing now
maybe im just having label crisis
heh
so funny ok
anyway i really miss gwen and i do
every post i will have gwen this name appear
heh wanted to put her name today on my wrist
but not enough money
so sadden lo
i noe im nuts la
anyway i cant be bothered with myself already
ppl make mistake as i do
others make the mistake worser than mine
yet they are still able to be forgiven
and back together happily
yet for mi
all i get in return was not be able to forgive
and being hated badly
while im in a world of my own
thinking that i might like stand a chance
wow nice imaginary
anyway liling stop imagining
face the reality pls
hehehehe
te amo<3
your desire for star are just like how much i desire u

Your name here . ♥
Friday, February 29, 2008

Dear readers ,

i done my best to ask for ur forgiveness already
today kristine told mi alot of thing abt u
like what u use to tell her last time
i hear already i feel even more guilty
i cant take it
tears just roll down my cheeks
im living in a world of self denied
thinking of thing that wun come true
knowing that u n melvrick is doing well
i kept thinking u n mi will have a new begining
seriously even though that time i went back to fanny
my heart was all along with u
and fanny she herself also noe that
but she din say a thing
how long is it for mi to get over u
y did thing turns out this way?
i thought that time when i ask for ur result we were still fine?
y did things turn to sour so badly
i oso do not noe y i did not treasure u when i was with u
i regretted
like i said u will have smth on with melvrick in the past
u din believe mi
when it happen u went speechless
and things fell out between u n mi
after i told u im back to fanny
i noe u n melvrick have smth on u expect mi to snatch u back meh
no right?
i never regret doing anything for u
im planning to put a tattoo of ur name on my wrist
i will not regret.
i seriously noe what it taste to be hate by the one u love
i wanted u to hate mi in the past when i sucesse
i din feel good n i realise i din want it this way either
i apologise did whatever i can just for u to forgive mi
but all u told jj was i wun forgive her
it hurt mi alot
esp my heart
even though i kept telling u i cant forget fanny
but i have never done a thing like 12 midnight to celebrate her birthday for her
and i dun think i even wish to do that for her
it was onli u
u were the only special one
i kept pushing u away when u were mine
but when i wanted u,it's too late already
u were in someone elses arm already
nothing i do is possible to get u back
i guess this time i had fall for u very deeply
even though u might not noe all this i just keep quiet
in few years time i hope u will forget the unhappy past
i dun wish to think of u anymore
everytime i think of u i will just keep crying
how long will this go on?
i dunno.
LIMLILING!can u pls wake up?
what doesnt belong to you dun take it
she already left u for another person
and most importantly now is SHE HATE YOU!
STOP LIVING IN A WORLD OF SELF DENIED!!!
WAKE UP!

Your name here . ♥
Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Dear readers ,

today is not a good day i guess
things were all screwed
anyway i shall not talk abt unhappy thing la
stupid jo mp3 got the that's when i love you that song
it just remind mi of gwen la
somemore that song is like that time mi n gwen just started only
alot of memory leh
hais y am i talking abt her again?
didnt i say to let go
anyway just wan let those ppl noe
i cut<3 gwen dun mean other thing
it's just that i keep saying sorry also no use
so i just prove it with action to show how sincern im just to apologise
even though it was stupid and u still wun forgive mi
but i just want to let u noe that
it's not worth to lose a frenx after a failure relationship between u n mi
even though i get so affected when i see u wrote u love melvrick
and melvrick wrote he love u
but i tried not to think
it was stupid of mi not to treasure u in the past because i think im not good enough for u
even though it really prove so
but i really wish if there's anything
u can still come to mi
remember last time we said we will be there for each other
if anyone of us change no. will tell each other wan?
but u din do a single thing that u had promise
i was disappointed in you
i din expect thing to be this way
i dunno y u hated mi so much to the extend u dun even wan to forgive mi
i guess it was because of that incident ba
the one when i disturb u n he came to find mi all
it was after that day thing change more?
no idea whatever it is
i hope one fine day thing will change

Your name here . ♥
Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Dear readers ,

i think it through le
hmmm maybe i will just get on with my life
i believe time will heal everything
even though u still choose not to forgive mi
but u made the choice n i have to respect it
no matter what i was the one who let u down first
im content with what im having now
perhapa like what candy blog say isnt single beautiful too
maybe it's beautiful just that i din realise
as long as i have what i wan
things are fine already
though thing are not really going the way i want
but i will perserver to wait for u to forgive mi
right now i will just study hard and try my best not to think of u
whenever think of u i will get upset
and do stupid thing
whenever i think of how i know u in the first place broke my heart
because the past was more beautiful than right now
if i could i would
turn back the time
though i noe it's impossible

Your name here . ♥
Sunday, February 24, 2008

Dear readers ,

this is what im going to repay u for giving u so much hurt and hate

i cant do much except for this

u said u wont forgive mi.i owned u too much

i can only repay u back with my blood and tears

even though u still wont forgive mi

still i dun wish to own u.the cuts are for u n the tears are for u too

take care dearest friend even though u wont forgive mi

Your name here . ♥
Friday, February 22, 2008

Dear readers ,

i noe im a failure friend in your eye
every night i will still think of what i did to all of you
i reallly learn my mistake
i just wish for your forgivness
i msg all but no reply
is it really the end of my friendship with u guys?
i had not been feeling good all this while
i may be happy infront of so many ppl
deep right down i really wish to have u guys back
all the happy moment,the movie we watch together
the cigg we shared.the gossip we had
all the things i done i dun feel good yet i still do it
will u guys just forgive mi?
whatever happen in the past is already over.
i hope to have a new friendship with you all
i wan to start all over again
everytime when i walk past the places we use to smoke at
i seriously think that i was a bastard
to think what i had done could actually hurt u all
but i still din it
i was wrong
but is it too late to know that im wrong already?
can you all forgive mi?
i've been hiding all this thing to myself for months!
i cant take it anymore
to melvirck gwen guohao
IM SORRY
i was wrong
will u all forgive mi?

Your name here . ♥
Thursday, February 07, 2008

Dear readers ,

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you'
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.'
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Your name here . ♥
Saturday, February 02, 2008