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Dear readers ,

today din go sch cux feeling unwell
but still i went down to meet her
i guess there's a GREAT change in the both of us
she change for the better
for mi it turns out to be the worse
but still i wan to do something abt myself
i wan to change for the better jux for her
i know action speaks louder than word
so im really going to do something
u noe i never wan to lose you anymore
any baby you noe we can last longer than them right?

Dear readers ,

well im like broke recently
dead man
i wan to go on diet pls
ok im super lame
welll.somehow i knew some ppl_____
nvm i shall not say wat is it
i jux hope that SHE will stop PESTERING her la
omg'
i dunno y
i DETEST you even more n MORE
haha
im mean
well today oral was ALRITE
haha
we were like bitching abt someone while waiting for our turn la
haha
so funny
nvm nvm
well shall not blog anymore got to cal someone important
byebye

Dear readers ,

haix.today is kind of bad day when working
seriously i wan to get out of this fucking job
i dun wan to see her anymore la
she jux annoyed mi la
oh fuck it mann
nvm nvm

if i dun take care of you, who will?
i will jux take care of u till there is someone so much better than mi
i will not leave u UNLESS u leave mi once again
becux u never noe how much u meant to mi girl
i love you

Dear readers ,

sch today was not too bad
frenx were CHAO nice to mi
no idea y
i mean this is the first time i really had no monet AT ALL
den they like force mi to share their food with them despite they themselves not enough to eat already
den we celebrated JUDY TAN birthday in class la
haha.
i felt bad
i told mr dil that they took the soccer ball from his class
i bet SHE chao hate mi now
but i dun really care
cux it's SUPER annoying la
they kick the soccer ball among themselves im okay
but they kept on like kicking it against the carboard
den it's like FUCKING noisy pls
it's SUPER DUPER ANNOYING la
nvm nvm
i guess today is a gossip day la
we jux GOSSIP alot la
haha

anyway today can be say like the HAPPIEST day of my life la
i never felt this happy before
though it wasnt my birthday but still there WERE suprise for mi
by someone
haha.i simply love her you know
im like broadcasting this la
but im NOT okay
haha
im being super LAME here
omg i dunno wat had got into mi
im like a crazy mad girl
perhaps i should not live in kallang
i should live in hougang cux IMH is there
haha

you know i never wan to let you go girl

Dear readers ,

today really sucks man
totally very sway la
i mean starting from morning all the way till night
nothing was good for mi today man!!!!

anyway it's after 12
it's HUIWEN n JUDY TAN birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIWEN N JUDY!!!!
sorry no money buy present la
anyway my birthday u all oso never buy present
so fair fair la
haha
kiddin la
no money
broke la
paisei paisei
haha

are u willing to let mi take care of u?
i really wish i will not be mad at u for the slightest reason baby
sometimes when thing happen i wish i could be right by ur side
however i dun seems to be able to do so
i dunno y
im sorry
i guess i wasnt a good ______
can we start afresh?
i wan to start everything from the beginning
will i able to do it?

Dear readers ,

dunno what's with all these ppl man
shall not say much man
or else they will say i bad mouthing them
anyway today nothing much happen
kind of peaceful la
nid to study for test man
haha
i only noe i miss her
thats all im going to blog today
i cant wait for the 1st man!

Dear readers ,

sian ah
to those spammer who like to spam my blog so much
den go ahead lo
u can say wateva u wan
cux i dun freakin care
forget it man
shall not waste time on u guys la
whole day whole life get ppl into trouble without feelin guilty
i guess ur conscience got eaten by dog already la
n stop BUGGING her for help la
if u r capable
ask other ppl la
like wth lo
loser pls
dunno la
i din write any name on it
so dun make any wild guesses okk
dun come my blog if u not happy with it
den spam my fuckin blog
jux fuck off from my blog la

am i awaiting the day to arrvie
u have to think abt it rite
or u can choose not to fulfil my wish
u dun have to come back to mi on this particular day if u dun wish to
since i have always been waitin
im getting sick n tired of waiting already
i dunno y
i seriously which every single thing in my life to disappear
i dun even noe wat im doin already
dun make any wild guesses
i noe i wan u
so i hurt the other party
neva wan to quarrel with u anymore love

Dear readers ,

haix,y did so many fuckin thing happen within one day
my fucking dad dun wan to give mi allowance
jux BECAUSE i din put my thing properly n din fold my fucking blanket
haix.fuck la.
ccb.i hate that fucking bitch in my hse
throw away so much of my thing already
haix.where they fucking hell expect mi to put the books n bag
i got no carboard to put my fucking thing la
a floor n bed
obviously i jux put it on my bed la
at least i never touch her fuckin floor rite
i din even mess HER fuckin hse la
i dun wan to stay in this fucking hse lo
now my dad is talking fuckin nice to mi
wth is this la
wat am i to them?
happy talk to mi ncicely
not happy shout at mi?
im their vent anger machine ah??
fuck sia
y do i have such a stupid dad who listen to that stupid fatty la
chee bye
next thing my dad say i never go sch today
say my teacher call her
when i GO school la
that stupid GOLDFISH eye
so BIG still din see mi
my fuckin dad jux dun trust mi la
fuck fuck fuck
wat is all this
my prelim is coming i dun even see myself touch the fuckin book la

im sorry
if u ever get to read this
i neva expect i will love her* so much too
i tot i could becux of u forget her de
but im sorry i cant do it
i noe i hurt u alot
u noe u deserve someone so much better than mi
i dun deserve ur love
no point being together with mi
not mindin that i cant forget my ex
becux im heart will still be with her
though she hurt mi alot
but i still love her like b4
i have no idea y too
guess im used to receivin hurt more than love
i never expect i will hurt u this much
im really sorry

to u
u noe i wan u
i dunno y i love you so much
promise not to push mi away anymore
i jux needed u so much
u meant too much to mi
i cant live on without u
whenever somethin happen
i wish i can hold u tight in my arm
i wish that i can be the one cheering u up when u are sad
no matter wat happen
i still wish u will remember im always here
i neva expect my love for u will be this much

Dear readers ,

i noe if u read my blog
u will be sad
becux everything it's abt her*
im sorry
i can only tell u this through my blog
i really cant forget her
i noe u are a better choice den her
but seriously i think i dun suit u
u deserve someone much more better than mi
i noe u will be hurt
sorry is all i can say
i din meant all this

i wan more trust from u
i nid more of ur attention care n concern
i noei nid alot of thing from u
im sorry
am i asking too much
i trying very hard to change le
i trying very hard to not to show u attitude
haix

Dear readers ,

Dear readers ,

Dear readers ,

sigh....
i dunno wat the hell im doin now a day
my life jux seem so meaningless without her
will i still love u as much as i do when u forget her
when will be the day u tell mi that u had forget her
i guess everything between mi n u was jux a short sweet dream i had
i have no idea y im feeling soo unhappy
well well well
im trying out yet i cant get the feelin like i have for u
is this jux affection?
i dunno
im so tired of everything
i jux wish the one that is in my arm was u
but it wasnt
will the day come?
will u still love mi like before
or it will jux fade aaway without u knowin
perhaps we are jux not fated
jux let nature takes it path
if we are meant to be together den we together
but if we arent meant to
i cant say much
now im leavin everythin in ur hand
u can change my life my fate
my lives is in ur hand
happy or sad ending
u choose it
bye buh world
it's time to bid goodbye
it's jux aint mi anymore
i had changed to another person
which mi mydelf dunno who am i anymore

will u pls be the past u?
i cant pretend i dunno u at all
everytime i see u
my heart jux ache
the past u was innocent
thinkin of the past jux hurts so much
it's up to u to change
think in 2-3 days time
i bet u forgot the date we had together
u jux aint u anymore

i wan my idiot to cheer up no matter wat
becux he juxx dun worth ur love alright
no matter when i will be right here for u
dun cry anymore for him
i dunno wat should i do now
i noe not heedin ur advice might jux ended up like u
now i dunno is i dun treasure her or is she dun treasure mi
seriously speaking
yes i do love her alot
but so?it doesnt really mean anything to mi n her now
i noe for sure i cant let go
cux it hurts
same same situation as u
it been long time since we drink together again

to you
u may not noe how n wat im feeling right now
i jux wanna tell u that i jux cant feel ur love
it's only the period of time when____ n ____ appear
that was the sweetest period of time after we broke up
i dunno maybe i should stop dreaming?
i dun think we are still possible
but i jux cant get u off
becux no one elses can replace u in my heart
so wat if im trying out
u ask mi to
i listen to you
though i try out but my heart with who u noe the best
seriously becux of___ thing
i was hurt by the words u said to her n everything
i was hurt by the truth
i bluff myself sayin that she's jux putting on a act
perhaps u reeally did hve feeling for her without you knowing girl
it's not too late or u if u wan her
becux i rather see u happy den suffering in my hand
i seem to unable to sastified you girl
haixxx.not to talk abt it anymore
it's jux sucks like emo shit
going to slp liao
goodnight:)

Dear readers ,

bloody bitch
so wat if i dun wan go to school
so wat if my hair is long or short?
does it even concern u
i mean u wan cal my father
u can cal for all u wan
but if my dad loses his job
U ARE DEAD!
i dun care if my dad is going to bash mi up for signing the letter for him
i dun wan to care anymore
seriously cux i dun give a fuck shit abt u bitch
u jux get out of my sight
i hate to see u this FATTY
always using sacartisms on ppl only
how i wish u could read my bloody blog
today post is so dirty because im scolding some mother fucker!!!!

can u regained back my trust for u again?
can u make mi feel your love once more time?
an i asking for too much:(

Dear readers ,

recently alot of thing happen
i noe u guys may scold mi silly or anything
but i jux wanna say that
even if she really confuse abt her feeling
she's sweet talking mi jux to deceive mi,
im willing to let her to do so
i noe i may sound stupid here
maybe u guys may think she really wan to see who is the winner
den choose
even if thats the truth,
i dun mind doing all these for her
yes it's silly i admit it
but i think it's worth
i dunno y
im jux doing all these for my precious her
i dun mind getting beaten up by ___ jux becux of her too
i noe i cant___ but it's ok
i dun mind
dun worry for mi ok
yes i noe i will get all the hurt
i noe im very selfish
i noe u guys meant well for mi
but im the one who's going to decide eveything
whatever decision im going to make
respect it ok
n dun be angry with mi for it
i noe its very pekchek to see ur precious fren to jux ___ cux of a gal
i noe u all may think she's deciving mi right now
i jux trust her words
if she tell mi this i will jux believe it n wun doubt her word
becux she meant too much too mi
i noe what is going on in u guys mind
but respect my decision no matter wat i do
dun be angry with mi for it ok
becux i jux wan to do this for her
maybe if i lose already
like wat u guys think that she may jux leave mi
i will jux accept the fact becux i was wilin to do it in the first place
i cant blame anyone except for myself ok
even if i get badly beaten up
it's my own fault
dun ever blame her for anything
i will accept full responsibility for whatever i did
i hope this will be the 1st n last time im doing this for a gal
im havin N level this year
i dun wish to get into anymore trouble
after N level i will leave the sch
i wun bother u guys anymore
specially thanks to sherlyn,lynn,ger and wendy
dun worry abt mi ok:)

Dear readers ,

somehow someday i jux think i should jux let go of you
i dun wan to make u suffer in my heart
u wouldnt be happy with mi...i tink...
haix...been thinking rather much recently
perhaps i was the one who change
i became a even MORE petty person
im jux a petty person who like to show attitude
u can actualy dun care abt mi
y am i learning fightin?
its because of u
at least i can take care of u
if u really wan mi fight with devil
i will go tell devil later
den i will say whoever lose wun contact u anymore ok
that will add more meaning to the fight
or else devil dun find a reason for us to fight
since now mi n her 50-50% chance for the both of us
i somhow think that maybe u should jux go try out new things bah
look toward ur future gal
she is a strong opponent that make mi wan to lose this war without even fightin
i jux have no confidence
i noe the way i said thing make u very pek chek n everything
i ask u whether do i stand a chance
instead of getting an answer i got a scolding
yknow i actualy when i patch back with u the other time
i wan to tell u this i dun wan u to forget ur ex completely if u cant
i dun expect all this
u jux have to put in feelin for mi n this relationship n its enough
i dun expect much from u
jux when im angry u make my smile
when im sad u are there
thats all i nid
i jux need to feel ur love
if it is too much to ask for den i dunno wat else to say already
i noe it's hard forgettin her
but i dun nid u to forget her as well
as long as u love mi it's more than enough
will u only really treasure mi hard when u really competely lost mi one day
are the both of us the same?
i give u a chance now
go stead with devil if u think u kind of have abit feeling for her
at least a try out..jux like i went to try out with gwen
at last i found out actually my heart is still with u
after trying,if thing dun work out wat u wanted
my arm will open n welcome u in
im not trying to be ridiculous here
i jux think i pei bu shang ni
u r too perfect for mi le:(

ydo i love you,dun even want to
y do i love u like i do.like i aways do

i jux love sherlyn so much worx
she talk to mi alot
sherlyn i wan to hang out with u more:)

Dear readers ,

i ask u if i stand a chance not den u tell mi dunno
say devil ask liao i still ask
so now mi n her is fair fair same chance wat
den might as well i jux give up
den u dun nid make a chiocie between mi n her
u juc go choose her lo
like that u got less thing to fan
is this also my fuckin fault?
wan to lessen ur burden for u
oso my fault
i tot without mi in ur life will be better>?
she so much better
i dun blame u for beong confuse\
i got nothing to say anymore
im speechless by how u answer mi
frankly speaking
more of i lost my trust already
im fucking hurt by the reality

Dear readers ,

lovin u too much is it my fault?
perhaps loving u too much
jux make u feel irritated....
had i given u too much?
i really dunnno
i neva wan to quarrel with u anymore
because the stupid thing i actually wanted to give up
but i cant bear to
u noe i cant leave you

somehow someday i jux pity her
i jux feel she suit u better
i jux think that i treat u badly
though pushing u there
i will feel hurt
but at least seein u happy in her arm
it jux comfort mi
if ever u still unsure of ur feelin
u wan to let of mi
jux tell mi den
if one day,u find some1 better than mi
jux go,i will let u go

i am not forcin u or anything

can we even last?

sorry for lovin you too much:,(

Dear readers ,

i dunno why u ux treat mi so differently
looking at ur bloody blog jux make my blood boil
haix
its jux seem like its two different person from 2 different blog
on my blog u seem to be so sweet
yet on ur blog u seem so harsh on mi
wat is the problem that causes
or is it u wanted her to see?
haix i reALLy dunno
bye bye world!
it sucks totally:(
fuck eveything

Dear readers ,

FUCK LA
FUCK THAT BLODY OLD HAG
CCB.THANKS TO U I ALWAYS GET SCOLDIN FROM HIM
FUCK U LA
Y MUX U ALWAYS CHANGE THOSE THING IN MY HOUSE
U TRYING TO TAKE OVER MY MUM>
NO WAY MAN
FUCKING HELL IN BAD MOOD ALREADY!!!!
JUC FUCK OFF N GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT PLS

u werent here when i needed u:'(

Dear readers ,

initially i wanted to give up
wanted to tell u that if u really like her
den u BETTER treat her better
BUT NOT NOW!
BECAUSE IM GOING TO TELL U THIS
I LOVE HER TILL I CAN DIE
SO U ARE NOT GOING TO TAKE HER AWAY FROM MI
NO MATTER WAT IT TAKE
IM NOT LETTING YOU TO TAKE HER AWAY FROM MI
BECAUSE I LOVE HER
SO U BETTER DUN TRY TO
U CAN LIKE HER YES!!
BUT NOT GOING TO TAKE HER FROM MY HAND
VUC I WOUNDNT LET U TAKE HER AWAY FROM MI
I NOE IM SELFISH
SO?LOVE IS SUPPOSE TO BE SELFISH
YES I REALLY LOVE HER
SO NO MATTER WAT IT TAKES
I WILL WOO HER BACK NO MATTER WAT
SO WAT U ARE MORE SUCESSFUL THAN MI
SO WAT IF THEY SUPPORTED U ?
I DUN CARE CUX I ONLI WAN TO BE WITH HER
SHE'S MY ONLY LOVE
WO AI SHI TA LE
I NOE IM NOT CONFIDENCE ABT MYSELF
I CRIED OVER YOU WANTING HER NUMBER FOR FUCKING LONG
BUT SO?
NOW I JUX WAN TO TREAT HER BETTER THAN U DO
INDEED IM SCARED THAT U WILL TAKE HER AWAY FROM MI
IM VERY SCARED
I WAN TO LAST WITH HER
IM GOING TO CHANGE TO A BETTER PERSON JUX FOR HER
BECAUSE SHE WORTH IT

baby i onli wan to tell u this
i really cant lose you anymore
this shall be the 1st n last time we going to break up
i swear i will trasure more than before
i neva wan anymore quarrel anymore
im not confidence of myself
that's y i do so much nonsense
i wanted to cut myself but i cant
cux i noe u dun like it
im feelin very uncomfortable n insecure right now
i noe i cant lose you for sure
i dun expect u to be perfect
i wan to change jux for u
i dun wan to do anymore nonsense already
take my words baby
i love you n i really do

Dear readers ,

i din realise my love for u will ever be this deep if werent for today,
i will never noe how hurt u felt that time
i noe IM a BASTARD
i admit kuo kuo sheng sheng shuo hui teng ni

BUT yet im so BASTARD together with another gal
thinking that it could sastified mi
my excuse for steading with her becux i tot u cannot forget her*
den i dunno how long i have to wait
wat a LAME excuse!

i din noe wat had cause the change in mi:(

IM a TOTALLY FAILURE BUNG!
perhaps i not fit to be one!
maybe like wat she* say
i this kind of person can jux be throw away

without mi,would you be better?

i seriously hate myself now
SERIOUSLY HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE!
i dunno wat the HELL had got into mi
i NOE i WANT YOU! yet im together with someone ELSE

the hand i wan to hold forever is yours
gal u noe it too
im sorry im jux a stupid fucker!

u melt my heart every single time u smile
ur smile jux brighten up my day!
too bad im a BASTARD!

maybe u should find someone like _____devil
she wun hurt u
in fact she can give u more happiness
or maybe i DUN EVEN give u that
she's able to give u wat i cant

im sorry for loving u yet together with another gal
if ever u dun love mi anymore
u can jux tell mi n i will let u free

I JUST HATE THE PRESENT MI!

Dear readers ,

was sick today
all those working n schling are tiring mi out
sooner or later
if this carry on,
i'll really get damn hell sick
how i wish there will be someone to take care of mi:(
i was damnit tired
din really eat today

during pc period was damn hell funny
we were playing some untangleing game
den we totally fall on the floor on each other
there were someone hand on my armpit la
damn itchy lo
but it was fun after all:)

today is____
yet nothing happen
but at least we are so much closer
and talking more now
im contented this way
i know yesterday when i mention janna
u wasnt very happy abt it
true enough
i was hurt by the fact janna still cal u
but i still trust u n not letting my mind run wild

maybe she* doesnt wan u to continue love mi

Dear readers ,

got a new hair cut


new watch


everything is going to start afresh


i wan us to start afresh too


though im not supposed to say thisbut in another 27min comes our


2nd ANNIVEERSARY!


supposed to be excited


but since we had broken up


cant be


unless it's miricle that u r telling mi


u wan to be back in my arm baby


i still love you like before


i cant wait to hold u in my arm once again


woaini


sad 040707:(


lonely mi have to spend it alone:(

present that i had prepare before the day we broke up:(

Dear readers ,

iLOVE010707
because after 11days of break up
she FINALLY tells mi that she love mi again
but again she hates mi at the same time too
well i cant blame her
i post waimun n ting pic jux to agitate her
sorry:(
(feeling guilty)
i din noe
i tot u jux dun love mi anymore
i noe sorry jux doesnt help
but i serioulsy other than sorry i din know wat to say
i noe now u still hate m
but i seriuosly love you
im waitiin for the day u turn back to mi once again
but can someone pls tell mi when will that be?
i seriously hope she will jux turn back to mi once again
i swear i will treat her better than before
i wun quarrel with her anymore
everything between mi n her will jux start from beginning
went K today
sang the same old song
but u werent there
things were different though it was the same old room
baby how i wish i could hold u tightly in my arm
i wanna hold ur hand tightly